Monday, July 22, 2013
So I had an epiphany. I'm losing control over my life. I am searching for a job... I am hunting for a job... and still I have no job. Making $10/hr with a PhD is just depressing. Seriously, 10 years of college to make less than I would if I just had a bachelors. Ugh.
So anyway -- I can't control the job situation. So I am controlling my food and exercise. The low carb thing is still going. I lost six # the first week, 2.5# the second week... so good. I can't complain about the weight loss that I've seen.
But I can complain about a surprise shark week 13 days early! Ugh! Stupid hormones! I swear my body's reaction to anything stressfull (such as losing almost 10# in 2 weeks) is just to go straight to a TOM survival mode. So I'm a grumpy, crampy cat today. It also interfered with my weekend with TJ. So that was annoying...
I'm still really tired on this diet. I cut out caffeine too though, so I'm staying strong and just trying to rest my body and give it enough fuel to keep going, but also to maintain my weight loss efforts. I'm going to listen to my body though. If this random shark week stuff sticks around for long, I'll ditch my super low carb diet for something a little more flexible.
I had a phone interview Thursday of last week... it would be a traveling position, so not ideal, but not horrible. I'm actually hoping I get it. It would be an interesting job, and not in academia (which right now is sh*t--no one has money, and no one feels safe enough to retire anymore...) The fact that I can't even get a postdoc because no one is offering grants for postdocs is just ridiculous.
So I can't focus on the job... I can focus on the food and exercise. I will take control of what I can, and leave the rest up to the universe.
Also -- Go see Pacific Rim in 3D. I hate 3D, I think its cheesy and overpriced, but this was really, really, really fun and an actually good movie.