Monday, July 22, 2013
We had a very productive weekend. We had pizza for dinner on Saturday and breakfast on Sunday but I'm okay with that. I slipped and had starburst yesterday afternoon in response to some anxiety. I thought I could just have 1 or 2 but nope, I ate the whole package.
Today though I feel frozen. There is still so much to be done at home and other places. I'm feeling anxious and I want to get my to do list done but I am seriously afraid that if I head into the kitchen or leave the house I am going to make some poor food choices again. I'm starving. I need to eat but I know that I will make some truly unhealthy and heavy choices if I can't satisfy my hunger before I leave the house. Numerous sugary items keep floating through my head and the only way to avoid them is to stay in the house. Unfortunately I can't do that. My anxiety is rearing it's ugly head today and I need to knock it back down. Sugar and caffeine are only going to make it worse. I know this. I wonder if part of the reason it is worse today is that I gave into iced coffee with sugar over the weekend.