Struggling to Start
Monday, July 22, 2013
I have no idea what to do with myself. After promising myself six ways from Sunday that I would spend some time this weekend walking, and getting some veggies in my system, I failed. Big time. I lead a sedentary life. I'm the first to admit it. But this weekend felt like a colossal failure on all levels. I didn't walk. I definitely didn't eat healthy. No veggies at all. And I slept really poorly. I got about six hours Friday night/Saturday morning, but there was a HUGE gap in between the first three and the final three hours (to the tune of 6 hours). Additionally, I spent most of those final three hours tossing and turning. Saturday night I got about four hours, and the same last night. And I have a feeling the lack of sleep is encouraging my lower back pain (which I am sure is not helped by my weight and poor posture).
I know that beating myself up will only make the problem worse, but I don't feel like I know how to get started. I really appreciated the comments on my last blog post that encouraged baby steps. But I'm struggling to motivate myself to take those steps. I know what I want the end result to be, but it's like I'm afraid of it at the same time. How do I get over that fear?
So I'm wondering, fellow Sparkers, how do you keep yourself motivated? And for that matter, how did you take that first step? I'd truly like to know, and I could really use the encouragement.