Monday, July 22, 2013
I recently blogged that I need to work on being more open and acknowledging my fear of relationships without turning to food for comfort or support. I thought I had found this guy and it was going to be an attempt at being a grownup. I was feeling really proud of myself.
Except almost immediately, I noticed that his behavior was a little erratic and he was incredibly intense about our relationship. A friend made an offhand remark that he sounds like a sociopath. I know this is arm chair psychology, but turns out he is. Like a text book case. I found a website and of 18 traits of dating a sociopath, he demonstrated 16. Everything from being a pathological liar to being controlling. Iíve cut off contact. I am emotionally exhausted even after just two months but in a weird way, I feel good about it. I learned a lot from him, even in that short period of time.
I believe there are certain people we are meant to meet in this life and theyíre placed there when we need them most. While this may sound strange, I think he is one of those people I was meant to meet. Another baby step to help me for when I meet a guy who isnít crazy and really does mean the things he says.
Needless to say, with all this going on, I havenít been so good about tracking my food. I have managed to go down about half a pant size but my weight has remained mostly stable. Starting today, I am recommitting to getting down to my goal weight. External drama and stress are not worth sacrificing my health over. I know this. Now I need to put it into practice again.
PS Ė silly saga of a single girl, but I thought this was a story worth updating!!