Monday, July 22, 2013
Many may say this is the same as an attitude adjustment, however, when attitude adjustment is mentioned I picture someone surly and quite beasty. I am neither of these, however, I lost all motivation for most of everything...work, taking care of myself, diabetes, spark, losing weight...and the list goes on and on and on. I didn't have a horrible attitude...just no attitude.
I took this last few days to review the last decade of my life to see where this came from: daughter harassed, bullied and stalked for ten years; hubby underpaid no job and I had to prepare EEOC case for him; financial troubles; church alienation; major home improvement scammed; ill for 2 1/2 years; lost a business; car vandalized to the point of having to be replaced; granddaughter and possibly grandson - Muscular Dystrophy and probably more I can't even remember. All I can say is my plate has been full for a while. My outlook on life has suffered greatly.
It dawned on me I needed a outlook uplift. For me, I have to do those things that give me comfort and encouragement. So far, I have read a good book, enlisted some positive thinking tools, attended a jobs seminar, started light journaling again, and reading my scriptures. I am not ready to jump full force into spark, but I am on the right path. I feel more positive than I have in ages. Some of these things are so trivial that it is hard to believe I have let this weight sit on my shoulders for so long.
Today is a new day and it is time for my nap. I have to sleep a little between jobs so I feel good during the day. I hope everyone has a great day!!!