Monday, July 22, 2013
I'm really struggling the past few weeks. I mean reeeally struggling. I can't even explain it. It's becoming all-consuming at this point...just about every thought I have is to "get on with it." Why do we get so resistant to something we KNOW we need to do, and something we really WANT to do? I guess maybe I'm just so afraid/convinced that if I try "once more" it will be a failure just like every other time I've started over. I also know every time I start over, things get worse before they get better, I have to feel painful feelings that I've been squashing away with food and inactivity and part of me is just not ready to have those painful feelings resurface. Now, over the years, I've had plenty of setbacks and plenty of start-overs.....but I can NEVER remember feeling so resistant before. I want to do it, but something somewhere inside me is not cooperating at all.
Does anyone ever feel this way or is it just me?