Sunday, July 21, 2013
I have issues with my parents in terms of my life choices.
As hard as this may be on them, itís harder on me. I donít want to be a failure. I donít want my life to come crashing down in ruins every few years. But at this point in my life, I canít put myself in a situation where I know things canít get better. I canít do that to myself. If thereís one thing Iíve learned, itís that I have to keep climbing. If Iím setting myself up for a fall, I have to fall from the highest heights. If my life is going to flame out, a small flame out would just lead to something worse. I wouldnít be able to accept it as an end. An epic flame out would be the only thing that allowed me to go forward. (Of course, no flame out and continual forward progress would be best, but if thereís going to be a flame out, I would like it to be one that makes sure I know thereís no going back).
Is it okay to be a drama queen if Iím willing to admit that Iím a drama queen?