Saturday, July 20, 2013
So, last night my best friend (I'm just going to start referring to her by name since I mention her a lot, lol) D and I went out to the movies. We saw R.I.P.D which was ridiculous but funny. Loved Jeff Bridges in it- so silly. Anyway, it was a pretty late showing and afterwards she asked if I'd want to stop by this place called Steam Pub that she likes because some of her friends were there. I said sure, even though I'm not a club kind of person, nor am I all that social. I knew she wanted to go and she was driving so I didn't mind. Anyway, the place is okay, I went once before for her birthday... it's in a building that looks like a train, and it's a bar but they have an area for dancing and a decent menu. Anyway, there was of course a DJ...
I am not a dancer. I am not social. I don't like drunk people, I don't like men grinding all over me. Etc. BUT D's friends, a girl and a guy, were nice enough- the guy kept buying us drinks and trying to get me to dance with him. FINALLY I gave in because it was just easier than putting up my normal "don't come near me" wall. And I actually did have a good time. At one point D and the girl (Drea) went to the dance floor and left the guy (Chris) and I at the table. Right by us, a bunch of guys were dancing and they were so good! D came back after dancing with a few of them, and told me "They think you're beautiful!" so, that was kind of nice to hear. Anyway, they started this dance circle and we ended up watching them dance, then they found an empty beer bottle and started using it to play Spin the Bottle- but whomever the bottle landed on had to go dance in the circle. A lot of people joined in, it was a lot of fun, and they were such good dancers! I had fun just watching, D went in and did her thing in the circle- she loves to dance. Once the circle broke up a guy that was across from us tried to get me to dance with him, but I declined... I felt sort of like we were with Chris and Drea so dancing with them was alright. But yeah... Chris kept telling me that I needed to break out of my shell and he asked if I'd go back with D sometime so I agreed.
Because he's right- I do put up walls around strangers, for no real reason. So I don't think I'm sexy or pretty- guys obviously do, and chances are I'll never see any of those people again so if I go out and have fun dancing poorly, who cares? So, as I work on getting into better shape I'm also going to work on not being such a wet blanket. Because it feels awkward to be the one standing on the sidelines when everyone else is having fun, or not talking to people just because I don't know them. I'm certainly not trying to "meet" someone but there's nothing wrong with having fun and getting to know people. Just because they're at a bar doesn't mean they're all bad- after all, I go to bars, right?
So, last night was a lot of fun. I ended up staying up until about 5 in the morning- needless to say I've been kinda lazy today. Got a lot of cleaning done and have been watching movies most of the afternoon and evening because my parents are out. My mother is mad at me and EMAILED me about it, so I sent her a snarky one in return. They went out and didn't even say goodbye to me. I'm so sick of these stupid little rants my mother gets on and her immaturity in just addressing issues- no wonder I suck at communicating healthily! I learned from her.
Anyway, I didn't eat well yesterday or today, but I'm going to do some menu planning and possibly accompany my mom to the grocery store tomorrow if she's pulled the stick out of her bum by morning, and get back on track. My coworker (my assistant in my room) Samantha also wants to start eating healthier so we are going to try to keep each other on track at work. She's like a size 4 so I really don't have much sympathy for her, but I guess she used to be fitter, and, everyone is entitled to body image issues. lol.