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Saturday, July 20, 2013

I start a new job on Monday. I'm hoping it will be less stressful, and the hours more regular, so I can find time to exercise and won't be too stressed to diet.
Years ago, while I was working as a cardiac cath lab tech and had just gotten accepted to medical school, a doctor I worked with said that time, between the acceptance and starting med school, would be the least stressful time of the entire rest of my life, and if I was ever going to lose weight, that would be a good time. I lost 45 lbs before med school started, only to put 30 back on during the first semester.
I'm in a weekend between jobs and this should be a wonderful three days: good job to go to but no responsibilities this weekend. But my younger (21 year old) daughter just bought a motor scooter, and I worry every time she goes out, and my 5 year old grandson is going back and forth between Mom (my older daughter) and Dad and I worry about him. He's starts kindergarten this year and I think that's especially hard for boys and his speech is sometimes hard to understand. My daughter and her husband (2nd) and my grandchildren (age 1 and the 5 year old) moved out of my house and into a nice rental house 3 months ago and now she's lost her job, which is putting a lot of stress on her husband and their marriage. I just seem to worry all the time, and it's wearing me out.
I've made this sort of job change before, from major administrative position back to hands on patient care. After a year or two of administration I get frustrated at what I can't accomplish. After a year or two of patient care, I get bored and look for a new challenge. I did patient care for 22 years, before I started getting restless like this. At my age, my mother had already been retired for 9 years. Since I started my family late, and since I don't have enough saved to retire, it will be at least 6 years before I can even cut working down to part time. And I worry about that. The anxiety level is just so high. And that makes it hard to do the things I need to do for me: eat right, get enough sleep, exercise, pray/meditate. Obviously, the new job is not going to fix all this.
I'm whining, I know. I have wonderful daughters and grandchildren and a roof over my head and food on the table and a good job to go to and a good income and I'm afraid all the time. Someone once said "Having children is having your heart outside your body for the rest of your life". But that should be a joy, not all this distress.
Well, enough whining. Time to try to get this day on the road. Besides, my daughter wants to use the laptop.
And life goes on.
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    I have to work also but I don't have the good education that you do. I'm in my sixties and I work in a warehouse lifting boxes that weigh 20-40 lbs about 70 times a day. I would like to quit,but my husband and I can't afford to right now. We're hoping in 1-2 years maybe I can quit. I have a family also, 3 daughters, 2 sons-in-law and 7 beautiful grandchildren. We lost one of our precious boys 2 years ago to a brain tumor.The stress of seeing your child lose a child is terrible, but I know that if I don't take care of myself, I'm of no use to my family. They worry about me. The best thing I can do for my loved ones is to start to love myself.
    863 days ago
  • DEBORAH2180
    It just means that you love and care for all your children! I too worry a lot about my kids. My oldest is 24 and she will be moving from our Chicagoland area to Florida on her own for her final school internship. I will worry the entire time. For my middle child, I can actually breath a whole heck a lot easier now that he is out of the Marines. When he served in Afghanistan, I ended up in the emergency room because I just could not stop crying. That was seven months of total hell for me! My youngest just turned 16 and he can get his license....I am just not ready to take home to the DMV for it.

    Good luck on your new job! I am awaiting news on my interview from last week! I hope I get the job!

    1675 days ago
    You're not whining - you're being a mother and you realize that you need to take care of you, too. I am a late bloomer like you, so it's easy for me to relate to you. I had a reflective day yesterday and finally came up with the conclusion that I need to do what makes me happy. Now...what makes me happy? Good luck to you and your family.
    1676 days ago
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