Friday, July 19, 2013
So, DH and I have been doing some serious soul searching together to help us get over the incident mentioned a couple blog posts ago. It's been quite a journey and he gave me an honest opinion of my weight loss journey thus far. It was something I didn't want to hear, but I needed to. I have been "on a diet" or "trying to lose weight" since high school and have had a moderate amount of success some of the time.
A couple days ago when I stopped in to medical weight loss I was pretty adamant that the program was not for me, even though their approach was pretty logical and I liked the fact that I would be monitored by a doctor throughout the whole process. They also guaranteed I would lose 130lbs in 11 months or I get all my money back. DH makes the point that for 11 months my diet would be restricted without really any wiggle room but in less than a year I would basically be a new woman. It's a small sacrifice, yet if feels like a big one. No cheat days, no eating a few fries off his plate, and no eating out. Period.
I want to lose weight but I want to do it my way. The problem is that my way hasn't been very successful. I'm 28 now and I have been trying to make a change since age 14. I don't want to enter my 30s stuck at the same weight with the same physical limitations so something REALLY has to give.
So, I gave myself an ultimatum. I have to lose 5lbs a month every month, NOT cumulatively. Meaning if I lose 8lbs this month I still need to lose 5lbs next month. I get one mulligan at a time, but if I go 2 months in a row without hitting the 5lbs goal, then it's off to medical weight loss I go and let the professionals handle it. It's not what I want, but I would choose it over hitting 30 and not making progress.
So, if I want to do this on my own I have to prove that I CAN do this on my own, for good. I have the key, I just need to use it. :-]