I have to admit, I'm finding this happiness business a little harder than I originally thought it would be, as the days go on. The first day was super easy. But, you know...as life goes on as normal, the newness of the "experiment" starts to wear down. Just as a brand new exercise and diet plan dies down after January 1st and is slowly forgotten by February 10th.
It's not that I don't have things to be thankful for or that I'm not happy. I do and I am. It's just that things that are negative compete with such force for my attention. I mean, it's just like Shawn Achor said...the news is full of depressing and negative things.
And, here is a confession that I'm not proud of. There is one person in this world right now that I hate. This hatred has developed recently...before this, I never hated a soul. But her...I HATE. There's no need to go into the why or what of the situation, but I can tell you she is an awful person. And it's difficult to know what to do with that sort of feeling when I'm re-training my brain toward positivity.
The only answer I can come up with is to do my best to let it go. Keep living my life. Keep enjoying all the blessings I have that are gifts and/or fruits of my dedicated labor as a successful, full-time working woman. Perhaps the best way to deal with someone so pathetic and petty is to just have a wonderful life without them.
So, I'll move on.
1. I'm thankful for a predictable, regular paycheck that helps me support myself and my children. I can't tell you how wonderful it is to know that I don't have to rely on help from my in-laws or my parents anymore to live my daily life. I feel like a real live grown-up now. And my credit score has risen by 100 points in the past 6 months that I've been on my own. I'm so proud of that. It's been so hard, but so worth it.
2. I'm thankful for this amazing town that is so culturally diverse. It has allowed me to try cuisine from around the world and come to experience a whole array of flavors and viewpoints and lifestyles. I would be a much smaller person - mentally, emotionally and spiritually - if it weren't for this town and the environment here.
3. I am thankful for sunshine. While everyone else complains about how hot it is, this California girl is LOVING this weather! Bring it on, Mother Nature!
Well, I wasn't supposed to see Mr. T until tonight, but he was a sweetheart and drove down last night again to be with me. We had a rather uneventful, but magnificent night together. How is it possible to fall deeper in love with a person every time you see them? I don't know. I just know it is.
Going to take a brisk walk this afternoon. And can't wait to sweat!
This is a great day for meditation. Work is very slow today...leaving a lot of time for thought.
RANDOM ACT OF KINDNESS
Have a good weekend, everyone. Here's a Friday funny for you: