Friday, July 19, 2013
It's hot! Everyone knows that but yesterday it was 107 outside and over 80 in the house with the air running full blast. I'm like a furnace anyway so to say I was uncomfortable is such an understatement!
We decided to go to the grocery store just to see if we could cool off there. The van was ok with it blowing on us but the store itself wasn't any better than home. OK, so this set the stage for eating. Most people can't eat in the heat but not me, I crave more.
My first mistake was being nosy, wanting to see what the stock boy was marking down. Well, remember those donuts. He had boxes of 6 in a box marked . 29 ! So for .87, I got the last 3 boxes!! I just can't pass up a bargain! There were more bargains too, like the hot dog rolls for .17 a package. So we'll be having hot dogs too.
When I got home, still hot, drooling for donuts, I started on them and hubby and I didn't stop till they were gone! Here I thought the donut craving was over only to have it rear it's head. I feel like this is my confessional! I'm getting tired of fighting, my whole life has been a battle to be slim. Maybe I'm just not meant to be that way! Maybe I should find happiness right where I am! I'm sure I would be happy just accepting this is how things are. NO!! I won't give up! I'll keep trying knowing my world will always have sweets in it and ill eat them but I'll also keep exercising and watching. I won't forget what I learned but I'm going to live too, ;)
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OH!! I Love those little Donuts the ones with the Powdered sugar are my Favorite, whenever I see them in the store I argue with myself and find myself speaking out loud you should see the people walking by!! Too Funny!!
I once ate a whole bag, OH my gosh were they good, but I left the bag on the floor, and my Wonderful DH saw them, and said I did not know we had them, so I told him I bought them the day before, so he told everyone we'd meet for a couple weeks, so that is my incentive for not buying them anymore!! LOL
Just had to tell you my Donut Story!!
1525 days ago
I know I CANNOT have such goodies in the house. That does not mean that I don't put them in the house, of course. Sometimes I succeed an d sometimes I mess up terribly. Hubby wants cookies in th eevening. I had stocked up a few weeks before he went to rehab. Well he has not been home--and the cookies are all gone!
Swiss cheese is another thing. I had groceries delivered , including 2 half pound packages of swiss cheese. In 2 days those were both gone. Once I was strong and at the deli I bought only 2 slices of cheese. Well I was successful that one time. I guess I can do that again.
In the evenings I go around looking for goodies at home. The only thing here approaching that is bread. So lately I have been having 4 pieces of (whole grain) toast with Brown an dBlummel yogurt spread. Better than cookies I think. And I got a small water melon, too.
So, we struggle, but don't give up! We will get a bit stronger each day.
You read about me and my counselor? She said she will help me 'fill up' without food.
I sure hope so!
Never give up! chris
1526 days ago
I think you need more support. I don't think you are doing anything wrong by any means... you have a lot to deal with and you need extra TLC...
Sending you big hugs!!!
1528 days ago
This blog made me laugh. I am always a sucker for a bargain whether it is good for me or not. Hang in there.
1528 days ago
you were doing so well with your trip reward as incentive. But with the change in your plans of it not being a cruise and not being rewarded in , I think it was, November and with this new trip flying off to california NEXT year....well, I find my self wondering if thats what made you relax so much to give in to all the donut cravings.
Perhaps thinking of another reward, that is not quite so expensive, but that you want just as much... for you to get for your wedding anniversary? Would that maybe give you the incentive back, as then it is closer to obtaining, than california next year...
Just thoughts that came to mind as I was reading your blog this last few times
good luck wrestling with your donut monster, drag out your sword and slay him where he stands, my friend!
1528 days ago
Hang in there!!! Stay positive and know the direction you want to go. I know exactly how you feel, I've bought items and sat and eaten the whole box all by myself. Pick yourself up, think about why you ate it, learn from it and move forward.
(It's interesting to have me comment as I need to actually listen to the words I send to you and abide by them as well....I know how hard it is to remain on the straight and narrow)
1528 days ago
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