Fighting the urge to give up today
Friday, July 19, 2013
Yesterday I had a wonderful walk then weighed myself, I had reached my goal of being under 170 by the end of the month. I was happy. Came home, computer problems. For now, it's back up but it's not great.
There is a lot of stress right now for my husband, he's not working a steady job, money is tight. His dad has Alzheimer and is going down hill fast, we even have my 20 year old daughter staying with him most of the time. Also we are finding out that his father has a major drinking problem. We didn't know how bad until my daughter spent a few weeks there. So my husband has been cranky with me. Oh, he gave me a bit of praise for my weight loss, then made spaghetti for supper knowing it's something I don't want to eat too much of these days. As I eat less, he seems to be eating more like it's some sort of in my face deal. Also he is seriously overweight, has health problems due to it. He's diabetic, knee problems, all which would benefit from losing weight.
I am not going to quit yet, but today just want to sit down and garbage out. It doesn't help that I also have no gas in my car and I had plans to pick up my daughter today. He didn't want to get my car gassed up last night. I only have 10 dollars and I am hoping to find a plant tomorrow at the bromeliad lecture I am going to at 9AM so don't want to spend that on gas. Though if he doesn't put gas into it tonight, I won't have a choice. He's upset because I am using more gas, blaming me going to the park twice to walk. He seems to forget I had to go to his dad's house twice and gee, trying to get our son set up for college, had to go there to do something this week