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July 19, 2013 - Day 49 of A Life Worth Living - Random Thoughts

Friday, July 19, 2013

Good morning my fellow Sparkers. It's Friday. It's hot, hot, hot in Kansas City today, but it's Friday so who's really watching the thermometer? We're all busy watching the hands on the clock. . . waiting on 5:00 p.m. . . when our weekends can begin. Least I am. I know, I know. . .there I go. . . "wishing my life away". Sorry about that. It's Friday - can't help myself!

I'm full of random thoughts today; thoughts I would like to share. Hope you don't mind. Please forgive any rambling I might do. My mind is sort of "all over the map" today.

I want to write a book. I am full of doubt.
I want to improve my health through "smart" diet and exercise. I am full of doubt.
I want to travel and see the world. Or at least a small part of it. I am full of doubt.
I want to quit my job - start a new career at 52. I am full of doubt.
I want to return to college and finish my degree. I am full of doubt.
I want to reach out to people - make new friends. I am full of doubt.
I want to go to church. Reconnect with God and His people. I am full of doubt.
I want to do my part to save the planet. I am full of doubt.
I want to sky dive. Just once. I am full of doubt.
I want to live an optimistic life. I am full of doubt.
I want to be a "giver" instead of a "taker". I am full of doubt.
I want to be an inspiration. To one or all. I am full of doubt.
I want to live authentically. My life. My way. I am full of doubt.
I want to love unconditionally. Always. I am full of doubt.
I want . . .
to. . .
live. . .
fully. . .
today. . .
and. . .
every. . .
day. . .
I am full of doubt.

Where oh where does this doubt come from? That part of me that is always there saying, "you can't do it - don't even try." That part. Where does THAT part of me come from? I have to ask, does it really matter where it comes from? Probably not. Rather, what matters is that I am aware of this doubt. And because I have awareness, I am empowered to do something about it. I can . . . not listen. I can refuse to believe the Negative Nelly that lives inside my head. Every time she says, "you can't", I can just go ahead and do it anyway. What does she know anyway? If I have never tried, then she can't possibly know what I am or am not capable of doing. Right? Right! So today, I shall try. Whatever it is that I really want. . . I will try my best to "just do it".

If you have a Negative Nelly living inside your head, I hope you will ignore her. . . if just for today. You can always go back tomorrow and let her rule your life (though I seriously doubt that you'll want to once you see what you can do. . . what you are capable of). So what do you say? Will you join me today in proving Negative Nelly wrong?

One final thought before I go. Did you notice - of all the things I want - which one is on top? That part about wanting to write a book? Yeah, silly dream, I know, but I really, really want that - with my whole heart! Are any of you authors? If you were to write a book, what would you write about? Just curious. It's random Friday. . . that's why! emoticon

Ok, time for work. Happy Friday everyone. Wherever you are, whatever you do, do it with "spark"!

Much Love,

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
XCOWBOYKC 7/20/2013 5:52PM

    I have NO DOUBTS about your writing skills and abilities!! Whether a blog, a short story or a novel, you can do it. Believe in yourself! emoticon

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GRAYLADY13 7/20/2013 1:06AM

    Excellent blog! You can! Love negative nelly, great name. I have her too. I have a book about dreams I started writing 10 years ago. I would also like a book of my poetry. You are a blessing in my life. emoticon

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    I also would love to write a book, and travel, and a couple of other ones you have written. And who knows what I will do in time. I might one day get to travel, and you might too. We might even bump into each other on the way-hehe. The things we can do Karen are endless. And sticking to our goals to get healthier open up them options even more so.
I went on my first ever plane trip in February this year. I met a brother and some relatives that I'd never met. It was in NZ, but still I had never been on a plane.
You are a nice virtual friend to all your spark friends. And you encourage us and support us. Be "Karen's friend", tell yourself all the nice things you tell us. You are special Karen, and you can do so many things if you believe you can and will do them. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
Tell yourself Karen "I can do it". And the more you believe you can do something the more possibility that you will do it.
If you want to write a book Karen, it is not a silly dream. It is a serious possibility. emoticon

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DEEGIRL50 7/19/2013 6:06PM

    I would like to write a travel book because I would first get to travel to all these exciting and wonderful places! Imagine being able to make a living out of your passion.

I hope Negative Nelly takes a hike! Here I packed her bags for her. emoticon

This is a great blog. I'm glad that I randomly came by to read it. emoticon

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DAWNSJOURNEY 7/19/2013 5:13PM

    have you ever tried self affirmation.. I am trying it right now.. twice a day but more .. look at your self in the mirror and say I accept you unconditionally right now.. or you might say I can write a book.. I will write a book.. .. let the doubt come but don't have a conversation with it.. about the 28th day they say something will change.. and the positive will replace the doubt.. worth a try .. it is a few words in a mirror.. how easy is that ..

I believe you can write a book .. nothing silly about it.. I would write a book of poems..

have a wonderful weekend.. j

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    All these things are possible except that with so many, you run the risk of overwhelming yourself. Maybe prioritize and select a few that seem more right for you right now. Start making some steps to move in that direction.

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    Here is a good title.. .
The research would be interesting.
It would not only help others who are always doubting
themselves.. but you too.
Just a thought.
You have a wo nderful day today.
Connie in WV
150+ to lose SparkTeam

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HEALTHYMLB 7/19/2013 7:30AM

    Ps TGIF !!!!!!

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HEALTHYMLB 7/19/2013 7:30AM

    Write a book, I read yiur mini blog books daily and look forward to them , no doubt there ! I too feel like a story to tell is inside me and I want to tell it to maybe help other moms who may have experienced what I went through and provide support and make a difference but of course there is my own doubt but..., thank yiu for. Always making me think and for our friendship some day we will meet in person so they have a spark convention ? That would be awesome !!!!!!! Lets go or organize one !

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RIGEIN24 7/19/2013 7:23AM

    No dream is silly, it comes from your heart. Of the truly great feelings in this world achieving your dreams is one of them. It's why we struggle so hard to get there, or sometimes--daunted by the obstacle--are too scared to try. But we never stop dreaming.

I hope you can overcome your doubt and do all the things that make life meaningful to you.

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