I feel like a gerbil lately… going around and around in the giant wheel of binge eat/exercise/binge eat/exercise.
The middle of summer means I pretty much do all of my running in the gym. Not that I dislike the treadmill – in fact, I enjoy having air conditioning, television, bathrooms, and water easily accessible. But it is getting old. I have struggled with my running the past few days – and while there’s been a few knee twinges (inflammation from wheat, perhaps) and some calf soreness (from a particularly grueling personal training session on Saturday), I think it’s largely mental. I start getting negative with myself:
- I’m never going to win a half-marathon, so what’s the point?
- I’m most likely going to binge eat away all the calories I’ve burned.
- I’m just going to have to get back on the treadmill again tomorrow.
Doesn’t sound like I’m having much fun, does it?
It’s because I know the solution to my problem isn’t MORE exercise. (Look at this recent research which shows we’re all exercising more, but not losing weight: www.latimes.com/news/pol
.) It’s eating LESS wheat. And sugar. And who knows what else that keeps fueling my food addiction. I’ve been slowly getting through Wheat Belly – it’s a tough read. Dr. Davis makes a solid attempt at transforming medical jargon into plain English, but still… it’s a lot to process. I thought that once I had a handle on the health and wellness claims of the Wheat Belly way, I’d instantly transform, but my food addiction is still too strong.
Sometimes I think the solution is to back off from training. Back when I was reading The Hunger Fix ( wp.me/p1N36Q-6R
), I remember Dr. Peeke suggested easing into exercise. Half-marathon training certainly is the opposite of that. There’s additional support for taking it easy shared by Eating Disorders Online ( www.eatingdisordersonlin
“Many people who suffer from eating disorders abuse exercise as a method for weight loss and turn it into a form of self-punishment. Ignoring your body’s signals of pain and fatigue can be unhealthy, and it can perpetuate other unhealthy habits like yo-yo dieting and binge eating.”
But… I really do want to smash my 13.1 mile record at the Disney Wine and Dine Half Marathon ( wp.me/p1N36Q-1c
So life will continue to revolve around obsessing over what I’m eating and sticking with this half-marathon training plan. The longer I keep eating wheat and carbs, the longer it’s going to take for my body to adjust to burning fat instead of burning sugar. I’ve already experienced the slow-down that comes with change in diet a few times ( wp.me/p1N36Q-3t
) – and we’re just about at the three month out mark from Disney. If I’m going to commit to being Wheat Free, I need to do it now.
And I need to find some positive thoughts to fuel these runs.
- It won’t always be this hot – at some point before Disney I’ll be able to take my run back outside.
- Running isn’t just about weight management – exercise also helps with anxiety management ( well.blogs.nytimes.com/2
- Seeing some physical results and improvements in my speed will help build momentum. I need to make food choices accordingly.