I feel like a gerbil latelyÖ going around and around in the giant wheel of binge eat/exercise/binge eat/exercise.
The middle of summer means I pretty much do all of my running in the gym. Not that I dislike the treadmill Ė in fact, I enjoy having air conditioning, television, bathrooms, and water easily accessible. But it is getting old. I have struggled with my running the past few days Ė and while thereís been a few knee twinges (inflammation from wheat, perhaps) and some calf soreness (from a particularly grueling personal training session on Saturday), I think itís largely mental. I start getting negative with myself:
- Iím never going to win a half-marathon, so whatís the point?
- Iím most likely going to binge eat away all the calories Iíve burned.
- Iím just going to have to get back on the treadmill again tomorrow.
Doesnít sound like Iím having much fun, does it?
Itís because I know the solution to my problem isnít MORE exercise. (Look at this recent research which shows weíre all exercising more, but not losing weight: www.latimes.com/news/pol
.) Itís eating LESS wheat. And sugar. And who knows what else that keeps fueling my food addiction. Iíve been slowly getting through Wheat Belly Ė itís a tough read. Dr. Davis makes a solid attempt at transforming medical jargon into plain English, but stillÖ itís a lot to process. I thought that once I had a handle on the health and wellness claims of the Wheat Belly way, Iíd instantly transform, but my food addiction is still too strong.
Sometimes I think the solution is to back off from training. Back when I was reading The Hunger Fix ( wp.me/p1N36Q-6R
), I remember Dr. Peeke suggested easing into exercise. Half-marathon training certainly is the opposite of that. Thereís additional support for taking it easy shared by Eating Disorders Online ( www.eatingdisordersonlin
ďMany people who suffer from eating disorders abuse exercise as a method for weight loss and turn it into a form of self-punishment. Ignoring your bodyís signals of pain and fatigue can be unhealthy, and it can perpetuate other unhealthy habits like yo-yo dieting and binge eating.Ē
ButÖ I really do want to smash my 13.1 mile record at the Disney Wine and Dine Half Marathon ( wp.me/p1N36Q-1c
So life will continue to revolve around obsessing over what Iím eating and sticking with this half-marathon training plan. The longer I keep eating wheat and carbs, the longer itís going to take for my body to adjust to burning fat instead of burning sugar. Iíve already experienced the slow-down that comes with change in diet a few times ( wp.me/p1N36Q-3t
) Ė and weíre just about at the three month out mark from Disney. If Iím going to commit to being Wheat Free, I need to do it now.
And I need to find some positive thoughts to fuel these runs.
- It wonít always be this hot Ė at some point before Disney Iíll be able to take my run back outside.
- Running isnít just about weight management Ė exercise also helps with anxiety management ( well.blogs.nytimes.com/2
- Seeing some physical results and improvements in my speed will help build momentum. I need to make food choices accordingly.