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Hamster Wheel

Thursday, July 18, 2013

I feel like a gerbil latelyÖ going around and around in the giant wheel of binge eat/exercise/binge eat/exercise.

The middle of summer means I pretty much do all of my running in the gym. Not that I dislike the treadmill Ė in fact, I enjoy having air conditioning, television, bathrooms, and water easily accessible. But it is getting old. I have struggled with my running the past few days Ė and while thereís been a few knee twinges (inflammation from wheat, perhaps) and some calf soreness (from a particularly grueling personal training session on Saturday), I think itís largely mental. I start getting negative with myself:

- Iím never going to win a half-marathon, so whatís the point?
- Iím most likely going to binge eat away all the calories Iíve burned.
- Iím just going to have to get back on the treadmill again tomorrow.

Doesnít sound like Iím having much fun, does it?

Itís because I know the solution to my problem isnít MORE exercise. (Look at this recent research which shows weíre all exercising more, but not losing weight:
.) Itís eating LESS wheat. And sugar. And who knows what else that keeps fueling my food addiction. Iíve been slowly getting through Wheat Belly Ė itís a tough read. Dr. Davis makes a solid attempt at transforming medical jargon into plain English, but stillÖ itís a lot to process. I thought that once I had a handle on the health and wellness claims of the Wheat Belly way, Iíd instantly transform, but my food addiction is still too strong.

Sometimes I think the solution is to back off from training. Back when I was reading The Hunger Fix ( ), I remember Dr. Peeke suggested easing into exercise. Half-marathon training certainly is the opposite of that. Thereís additional support for taking it easy shared by Eating Disorders Online ( www.eatingdisordersonlin

ďMany people who suffer from eating disorders abuse exercise as a method for weight loss and turn it into a form of self-punishment. Ignoring your bodyís signals of pain and fatigue can be unhealthy, and it can perpetuate other unhealthy habits like yo-yo dieting and binge eating.Ē

ButÖ I really do want to smash my 13.1 mile record at the Disney Wine and Dine Half Marathon ( ).

So life will continue to revolve around obsessing over what Iím eating and sticking with this half-marathon training plan. The longer I keep eating wheat and carbs, the longer itís going to take for my body to adjust to burning fat instead of burning sugar. Iíve already experienced the slow-down that comes with change in diet a few times ( ) Ė and weíre just about at the three month out mark from Disney. If Iím going to commit to being Wheat Free, I need to do it now.

And I need to find some positive thoughts to fuel these runs.

- It wonít always be this hot Ė at some point before Disney Iíll be able to take my run back outside.
- Running isnít just about weight management Ė exercise also helps with anxiety management (
- Seeing some physical results and improvements in my speed will help build momentum. I need to make food choices accordingly.
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    You've got some big goals right now, but they only way to achieve them is one little step at a time.
    Keep following the advice you got through counseling, and keep moving forward! As one of the DJs on my morning radio show says, as long as you are moving forward, you are still in the race.
    Just don't stop!
    1190 days ago
    I completely agree with exercising to alleviate anxiety. You're doing all the right things and being thoughtful. Keep trying, you can do it!

    Great research, by the way.
    1191 days ago
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