Thursday, July 18, 2013
I didn't start when I was supposed to. This month I had an okay week then horrible. Now I'm trying some. I am lacking motivation. My sleep and eating are so off. I need to start note to make some changes. What do I fix first though?I have been waking up from 3 to 430pm except when I have plans then I undersleep. I've been staying up at night alone, missing the sun. I can't take walks daily due to that. Today I was up at 1230 after my mom woke me a few times. I wasn't extremely tired but didn't really sleep. I'm super acidic from coffee and fruit especially all those apples I didn't need. I've been dehydrated and I'm still overeating especially because I'm not even hungry and not moving. I don't have any rules for myself or listen to how I feel. I just randomly do things that make no sense and regret them. I hate how I look and feel. I can take a slow wall after my appt this evening but then what. How can I get my food on track and mymove more. I need to stop playing games eating when not hungrybut food seems to be my only enjoyment. It's worse when I'm so acidic. I need to drink more green juice and quit the coffee and acid fruit. Apples are terrible what's going on doesn't matter if I have a plan to get better. I've become so lazy. Where do I begin? . I want my sleep on track, to eat less and do real workouts to have structure and start losing fat which only happens when i stop overeating. I'd like a romaine smoothie with banana and green juice. I'm very depressed and confused lately. How can I get clarity and start making progress?