Thursday, July 18, 2013
When I posted last, I was all depressed and full of self-loathing; worried about my aged parents, and had basically stopped caring for myself. That translates into emotional eating and vegging on the couch (or wherever I could veg). After spending a week with my dad and his wife, as well as ALL my siblings (5), I am feeling much better. All the problems I had still exist, but that little break from feeling like I was dealing with everything alone did wonders for me. Nothing has changed but my attitude - but that's what needed changing the most!
My dad is still in end stage renal failure, but he's looking good, and feeling good, for the most part. Yes, it is likely that he won't be around very much longer, but he's making sure that he ends his life on a good note, with no unfinished business. He told us (siblings) how much joy he felt at seeing all 6 of his children together, getting along, laughing and enjoying each other's company...that alone made the trip worth it for me!
My mom is still blind, delusional, and kinda crazy, but I've got a lot of siblings who live close to her to help her as much as possible. In short, I can't do anything about that, so I have to just stop stressing out about it. And I can, really...it helps a little that she hallucinates as well, and there are reports that she sees her (deceased) husband and parents often, as well as...babies? But she appears to be enjoying her delusions, so I like to believe she's found some peace, somehow.
Now for business. I attended a wedding, a wedding reception, a rehearsal dinner, and ate out a LOT, and managed to stay on course through most of it. As much as I love wedding cake (inexplicable, but I really do), I didn't even go near it. When we went out for brunch, I had oatmeal! The only exercise I got was when we walked from place to place...and a little bit of sight-seeing we did. In the end, between the previous week, when I was stressing out and allowing emotions to determine my diet, and last week, when I was exposed to all manner of sweets and treats, I managed to lose another pound. How cool is that?! I know it's only a pound, but it's a pound LESS, when I was fearing multiple pounds more. Instant motivation!
Now I have to get working, because it's mid-afternoon already, and I've none ZERO workouts! Here I go.........