Thursday, July 18, 2013
Hello Sparkie friends,
I would like to thank all of you who have sent me messages and Spark goodies while I have been gone from Spark People. It has now been almost a year since I've been active on the site, and I have not been maintaining my weight loss.
After a series of injuries, I drifted away from Spark People because I gave up for a while. I was frustrated with injuries that put the brakes on my progress. At first, I tried to maintain a healthy diet to keep the weight off. It didn't work. Finally, I just quit trying. This is when I quit visiting Spark People. I couldn't bring myself to post a truthful update such as, "I ate pasta until there was no more." I also couldn't post a lie - that I was making healthy choices. So, I slunk away to eat pasta and cheese to my heart's content.
By the beginning of 2013, I knew I had to do something, or my body would pay the price with continued arthritic degeneration in my lower limbs. I resolved to incorporate regular exercise into my weeks, but didn't make the time to return to Spark People. I felt guilty for just disappearing. My crazy schedule kept me from truly regular exercise and I didn't have time to track food.
With the year more than half gone, despite my efforts, I have gained weight. Yes, I have continued to incorporate even small doses of exercise into my hectic life. I have tried to make healthy food choices, once in a while. I drink more water. I use whole foods when I can. Time is my enemy. When I come home at midnight and haven't had dinner, I grab whatever takes the least time. Since I have adjusted my shopping to accommodate this, I usually have chips or nuts and cheese laying around. NOT a healthy meal.
That said, I realize I need the encouragement and accountability I find with my Spark friends here. My life continues to be almost insanely hectic. I don't know how I will make time to visit SP regularly. But I want to find a way to make it work.
I am working two jobs right now to try to get enough money to stay in school this fall. I am also taking a step back to evaluate if the cost of my education to my life and health is to great to justify continuing it. The sacrifices I continue to make to pursue my education come at a cost that money can't buy: my health, my friends and quality of life.
So thank you, each and every one of you - who stayed the course and kept on Sparkin', who sent me goodies and messages and continued to reach out to me in my absence. I appreciate it more than you can know.
I can't promise that I'll be able to Spark daily, but I will be back as a regular Sparkie and maintain my commitment toward forging a new, healthier lifestyle.