Hitting Rock Bottom and Rising Again!
Thursday, July 18, 2013
I've been MIA for awhile..since January. Since that time I was on maternity leave and returned to work in March. Even though work and family life has been going well, I was at the point of not being able to take one more day of what I was seeing in the mirror.
This past March, I felt like a very small version of what I can be. I had only three pairs of "big pants" to wear since maternity leave, as well as shirts that were either ill-fitting or still made me look pregnant. I've dealt with weight for 25 years and this wasn't about the baby weight. This was about what I've carried around for years and how I've stayed hidden. I want my son to have a vibrant, energetic mom who can keep up with him and show him an exciting life! I want to teach him about goals, strength, and living your best life. How can I do that when I'm tired, heavy, and extremely unhappy in my skin?
My summer break started and I decided to take the first step and start a personal 90 day workout challenge. What I have found is that I'm getting more and more addicted to how it feels after I've pushed and sweated and felt endurance! I don't want to let that feeling go by and I've nearly finished my first 30 days! My body is moving differently, I've lost inches, and I feel more focused. It's taken me a little longer to get through the first 30 days of workouts because I've had to have a few extra rest days, but I don't care about perfection. I care about progress!!
I'm glad to be back in my SparkPeople home too!