I'm officially 30 weeks prego. My body is stressing me out more and more each day. The first two trimesters were a complete breeze compared to what I'm enduring now, but I still feel like I'm one of the lucky ones. And, I'm enjoying my baby's kicks, jabs and punches to the fullest extent. But, I have to say, it's not easy lugging my big old self around! I feel like I weigh a million pounds. Last night, after hours of ironing, my legs felt like they each weighed 200 pounds. It was all I could do to lift myself into the shower without collapsing...not to mention terribly sore and swollen feet. But, all in all, besides feeling HUGE
, having sore feet, and daily killer heartburn, I feel pretty good.
My energy has definitely been low lately. I haven't gotten to keep up with any kind of exercise routine because there are a billion things to do before the baby arrives. This saddens me because I had such a wonderful routine going in the beginning. But, there was a nursery to remodel and of course closets to be re-organized, things to be cleaned out, etc. It has just been such a busy time for me, and I'm completely exhausted trying to get it all done.
My DH and I took a lovely "babymoon" over the 4th of July weekend. I was surprised at how many people have not heard of this term, so just in case, a babymoon is kinda like a honeymoon before baby comes. We obviously don't have quite the funds flowing we had when we took our luxurious honeymoon to Jamaica
, but we still had a lovely vacation in the mountains . We ventured over to Cloudcroft, NM and I thoroughly enjoyed more than anything, the nice 25 degree or more cool-down! We tried a little hiking the first day we were there, but the trail we ventured onto was a little steeper than my pregnant body could handle. Plus, the altitude was getting to both of us! When you live in super-flat land, a hill will give you altitude sickness!
So, we just took it easy and enjoyed the sights. Went to see a lovely little waterfall hidden away several miles from our cabin, hoping that it would be a neat escape from all the tourist activity. Boy were we wrong in assuming that! The place was crawling with people and we barely made our way near the thing to get any decent pictures.
From there, we drove to Carlsbad to go through the caverns; we have both been to the caverns on several occasions, even once together, but we tried something new this time. We took the elevator down, but hiked the natural way out. Sometimes I think that my brain doesn't function properly! I'm such a stubborn person, and I really push myself to the limits sometimes. We had already made the mile trek through the caverns, but I decided that rather than wait in the hour and a half long line to use the elevator on my sore feet , I would just hike it out of there. This hike was mostly heading straight up and was very strenuous. We talked to the guide about me doing it at 7 months pregnant, and he said that people of all ages, shapes, and even pregnant women do it all the time. So, we ventured on! This was one of the most enduring things I have ever done, comparable to last year's mountain climb. There were times when I would just sit down and stare all around me. All I could see was cave below me and cave above me. Would I ever make it out?! I guess you could say I hit a wall on several occasions. But I saw many pregnant women coming and going and knew that I could finish. It was a mile and a half up, and it took us about 2 hours to make it out. Afterwards, I could not speak for a good 20 minutes. I'm not sure why this is, but I just couldn't. I felt such a huge accomplishment in overcoming this feat while huge pregnant! It makes me feel like I can do anything I put my mind to! A mere hour after completing it, I felt no remnant of pain from the hike, and that was an awesome feeling too! After that, we drove back home. I was sad to see the end of our trip, but came away with a lot of memories and accomplishments!
I guess I bring this all up because I needed it in writing that despite what I see in my body and all the literature about pregnancy, I want to know that I'm still doing alright. Admittedly, I did not post pictures of my babymoon here because after looking through them, I was simply ashamed. I feel so embarrassed by my weight gain, and I'm sure it's mostly due to what I have heard/seen. I keep getting emails about tracking pregnancy weight. When I finally tried one of their fancy weight trackers, it came back with dismal results basically letting me know that I'm too fat. Then I got inundated with emails discussing that I have gained far too much weight and to just count on a C-section in my "condition;" I even got emailed an article this morning that stated that overweight women don't produce enough breast milk or that their milk is completely undernourished as compared to other women. It's been very depressing and paired with looking at pictures of myself, I have just felt plain down about it.
I have been tracking my exercise here just to feel like I'm doing something right. I know it's probably pathetic and lame to worry about all of this, but I just don't want to wind up staring in the face of a much bigger mountain than the one I had a year ago. And I guess it's hurtful too, because I haven't just given in and eaten everything in sight. I have tried to be conscientious about the foods I have consumed. But I haven't felt the greatest to want to exercise every day either like I felt in the beginning. I know it will get better and that I will be able to lose the weight after the baby is born. I just hate getting all of those discouraging articles in my email--makes me feel like a failure.
Anyway, enough of feeling sad. I have plenty to look forward to and be excited about. Just a little while longer until I get to meet my precious one, and I can barely wait! Some days it seems like it's taking FOREVER!!! Others it seems like I just found out yesterday! Soon the day will come and I will be one happy new mom!
Hope you all have a fabulous day!