Thursday, July 18, 2013
So these are the goals that feel like pipe dreams. The dreams that, while technically possible, seem a million miles away. These are also the secret dreams that I don't like to tell people and that I am sometimes embarrassed for wanting.
1. Weigh less than my boyfriend.
He is naturally thin and struggles to gain weight. Currently, there's about a 20 lbs difference between us and it is NOT in the direction I'd like. He always says he loves me and my body and that I don't need to change a thing, but that he will support all of my efforts. It's wonderful to hear but does nothing to my waistline or my opinion of it.
2. Run a marathon.
I am running my 1st 5k this weekend and I am terrified. I know I can't run the full 3.1 miles, and that I likely can't even run a full mile yet. But I am so far from where I was 8 weeks ago. The idea of running a marathon seems like one of those lofty, impossible goals that I will never quite reach. However, my plan right now is to build up my running one mile at a time.
3. Share clothing with my sister.
Again, a loft goal that I would be flabbergasted if I ever achieved it. My sister is 6 years younger, 55 lbs lighter, and 4 sizes smaller than me. We can, technically, share very loose and very stretchy things now, but to find a way into her wardrobe would be the ultimate success for me.
4. Be able to buy normal sized bras
I am a 34F. Victoria's Secret does not carry my size. They don't even come close. Large department stores seem to think that people with my chest are middle aged women looking for a minimizing bra in either white, black, or nude. Specialty stores seem to think that I either need exactly 1 bra or I have enough money to drop $90+ per bra. To fit into a more standard size would mean less $ leaving my wallet, more varied options, a better fit to my clothes, and, most importantly, an end to my back pain which has sometimes left me unable to get out of bed.
These are just a few of my goals and as I think up more I'll probably make an updated post.