Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Wow... its been a wild two weeks. From my lowest, most terrifying moment to the exhilaration of knowing my children were safe... running between those hospital rooms to see their faces and feel their breath was so much like counting your babies toes and looking them over at birth.. yes.. all there... intact..
Safe. Alive. Breathing... A future.
Where do I want to be in that future? On the sidelines? Sick... overweight... tired... cranky?
No. I feel like I was given a second chance at life as much as they were. I am so determined to get fit and stay fit. For them. For me.
I am lucky, I know exactly what I need to do to get healthy. I won't ever make it on Jenny Craig or Weight Watchers, Vegetarianism made me gain weight, low fat makes me evil. It's simple. I can do this. I just have to remember that the future with my children is more important then stopping for that cheese pizza or building a big sandwich.
So I have to make a plan.
1) Stay with foods that fuel me, this is simple, lots of veggies, meat, good healthy oils and limited dairy. No grains. No chemicals. No low fat or lite anything.
2) Meal planning and preparation on the weekends. If I bake my chicken and make my huge salad. I don't slip up. I slip up when I get lazy or busy and let it slip.
3) Make "me" time. Simple. Commit to making the time to exercise to fuel myself. The time to read my bible to keep my faith strong. The small things, the bubble baths and good books that nurture my soul.
4) Family time. Right now, I am rethinking everything about my world. Do I want to do less foster care? Less hours at work? Different career path? Maybe homeschool? Maybe ... I don't know.... but I know that my family and I need each other now.
This isn't about weight loss for me... this is about a holistic complete mindset of change. I want to be involved and happy, healthy and complete for my family. They need me as much as I need them. This is a work in progress...