Wednesday, July 17, 2013
It only took me about 24 hours to tear through Stephanie Evanovich's book, "Big Girl Panties," which I got from my local library. The story is about Holly, an overweight woman who gets seated next to an Adonis of a personal trainer on a flight from Toronto to New Jersey... and ends up becoming his next project.
While there are steamy sections (be warned!), for the most part this book centers on Holly's difficulties in seeing herself as worthy of Logan's attention ... and Logan's struggle to see Holly as someone he can be seen in public with.
So much of this story hit home for me... my boyfriend is easily the most fit/buff man I've ever dated (or, for the most part, ever even befriended), and as a woman who's quite overweight, it took a large leap of faith on my part to believe that I could be "worthy" of him. Whenever we meet new people, I wonder whether they're thinking, "What's he doing with HER?!?!" Well -- I don't wonder. I assume. People MUST be thinking that, right?
Holly and Logan don't actually get together until she's lost a significant amount of weight, which kind of irritated me... but I appreciated the treatment these inner struggles got in Evanovich's book.
It takes that leap of faith for each of us -- regardless of how we look -- to believe we are worthy of the good things that come our way. Maybe those good things are the romantic attention of good-looking people. Maybe it's success at work. Maybe it's something else entirely.
I struggle to remember that I *AM* worthy... in fact, I tell myself this every single day. I hope you do, too. Because you ARE worthy.