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Onederland. It's good to be back !

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Aaaaah Onderland. How I've missed you !

Last time I was here, it was 2008. I'd just discovered that I weighed 199lbs, and was horrified. I hired a trainer for a few weeks, with the intention of continuing on my own. The trainer was great, and the first few weeks on my own I did very well. I lost 22lbs total, getting to a historic 177 lbs. Unfortunately I wasn't doing it right, so it was doomed to fail. I did a lot of strength training, but I didn't change it up a lot. I was doing an hour of cardio 2 to 3 times a day, which simply wasn't sustainable for me. I watched what I ate, but I became quite lax about it. My resolve had started to wane.

The coup-de-grace came in February 2009. My friend was driving us to Toronto for the weekend. I'm not sure what happened but the cops said we must have driven over a patch of ice. The best way I can explain how it felt was that the car had suddenly "lost its' mind".

While my friend tried over and over again to wrangle the car, we got frighteningly close to being crushed by an 18-wheeler on our right. In a last ditch effort, my friend flipped the wheel all the way to the left, sending the car spinning off the freeway and into a ditch. The car was totalled but we were miraculously unharmed except for a mild case of whiplash. I'm grateful to God that nobody else got hit by our spinning car.

Everything felt surreal for a few weeks after that. I remember opening my eyes after the car had stopped spinning and being surprised that I was still in my body. The day after the accident, I walked around feeling like I shouldn't be here. I walked into a McDonald's and had a burger, telling myself defiantly - "I almost died. I'm having a burger !". Oh man. I guess it might have been ok then, but I had way too many burgers after that !

I saw chiropractor for the whiplash, and the sessions replaced my daily workouts at the gym. That was ok at the time, because I really wasn't myself for a bit. He made my neck all better, and he also took care of my pre-existing aches and pains. As an added, unexpected bonus, he was so unbelievably gorgeous that I would have gladly gone to physical therapy forever :)

I forgot all about my weight loss goals. I just focused on being alive. It was weeks before I felt like myself again. But even after that, my weight loss stopped being important. It stayed that way for way too long.

Now I'm back. And I'm alive. And I'm SO happy to be here. I care about my health, and I'm surrounded by others who feel the same way. I'm happy you're part of my journey, and I feel lucky to be a part of yours'.


It's good to be back !

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MOTHEPRO 7/20/2013 11:15PM

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UNSWEETMAMA 7/20/2013 6:42PM

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That sounds like a scary experience. I'm glad you are on the right track now.

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MRS.CARLY 7/19/2013 4:59PM

    WHOO HOO For onederland! You will be here for good! Slow and easy, no extremes this time. Just take it one step and one day at a time.

You know you got this girl, don't you?!?

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RECREATING_ME 7/18/2013 1:56PM

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So glad you are back and sharing your journey with us :)

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TRIXIETEXAS 7/18/2013 12:03PM

    You are lucky to be alive...and now, to be LIVING a healthy life. Congrats on reaching onederland, I can't wait to get there myself. 33 pounds to go!

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TATERCAT 7/18/2013 9:41AM

    Congratulations on your weight loss! You are totally right - we are all behind you, supporting and cheering you on! I am sorry to hear that you had to pass through a horrendous experience though.
So, is there still a reason to see your chiropractor again? emoticon

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CAROLIAN 7/18/2013 3:09AM

    Welcome back emoticon

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STEPH-KNEE 7/18/2013 2:54AM

    So awesome and a huge milestone, congrats!! emoticon emoticon

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MATTEROFHEART 7/18/2013 2:22AM

    emoticon for Onederland! What a great milestone! emoticon for doing it the right way this time!

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FRUITYFUL 7/18/2013 12:47AM

    Great job getting back to Onederland, that must feel GREAT! I can't wait to get there myself. What a close call you had! I'm glad nobody was seriously hurt! I can understand why you reacted the way you did though, that type of situation can really affect you in strange ways!

Keep up the great work!

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GINA180847 7/17/2013 11:16PM

    Wow, you went into a strange place but we are glad you found your way back. Quite a story! Glad you are totally you again.

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DALID414 7/17/2013 10:37PM

    emoticon back to onderland.

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CAROLISCIOUS 7/17/2013 10:12PM

    Wow...what a story. Another chance at life is a rare gift. Make the most of it. Sounds like you are.

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_JODI404 7/17/2013 9:46PM

    emoticon on making your way back, the healthy way!!

I'm very glad to be part of your amazing journey! emoticon

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ISAVEDME80 7/17/2013 9:18PM

    Wooohooo Congratulations girl. I knew you could do it.
So glad you are here with us. So glad to get to be a part of your journey. Your a beautiful girl and a sweetheart. So glad to see you in happier spirits. you deserve to be happier :)

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WHOVIANGIRL23 7/17/2013 8:17PM

    Congrats!! I'm 11 lbs away from joining you!

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SUGARBABY60 7/17/2013 7:41PM

    Let me get this straight ....that was 4 1/2 yrs ago? At any rate , welcome back to onderland! Glad that physically and emotionally you are back on track. emoticon emoticon

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JADED_CHICK19 7/17/2013 7:31PM

    So happy to hear that your injuries were minor. A big life event like that can really put a damper on our journey to health and lower weights. You have done an amazing job of getting back to Onderland and yo should be proud of yourself!

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    Wow!!!!!! What an amazing story! Congrats on making it back to Onderland... I hope to be there soon myself.


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SUSIEPH1 7/17/2013 7:22PM

    Welcome Back Sweetie,
You have had a awful experience and hopefully you are feeling better now. It's good that you are now concentrating on getting fit and healthy .. We are all here for you ..
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