Wednesday, July 17, 2013
I hate set backs. I know that life will throw crap in my direction and when that happens I find it hard to stay motivated. Every time I start anew and I'm ready to change things, something stupid happens and I can't say on track.
I can't make any more restrictions to my diet other than cutting out sugar which is really minimal anyway. I don't like sweets like cake or candy. I always avoid the break room at work where the tables are disgustingly filled with cookies and pastries and donuts. I always refrain. I drink water everyday. No soda. I haven't had soda in 6 months. I haven't had fast food in more than a year. I've been vegan for 5 months. No meat, turkey,chicken,cheese,eggs, real butter, yogurt, sour cream...................nothin
g! I learned to love broccoli, green beans, salad, and different sources of protein. Still I struggle with my weight. I don't get it. Sometimes I just look at myself in the mirror and think, " Maybe this is me now. Maybe this is what nature intended me to look like. Should I just except the fact that my body is never going to change and I should just settle with what I've got?
My body is fighting against me. Sometimes I believe my body is my enemy. It has kept me from doing the only thing I want to do which is to have a child with my husband. I know that this isn't very inspirational. I just don't understand why my body can't just give me a break.