Yesterday I went to Walgreens to purchase some braces. The kind that help stabilize joint areas that you may be having trouble with. Since they had a sale going on (yay!) I was able to get one for my right wrist, one for my right elbow, and one for my right knee. Not sure what is specifically happening in my right arm, possibly carpal tunnel, but the knee suffers with arthritis. I thought it would be helpful to give it some support when I am trying to do more walking. I bought the biggest size available (for men even).
I was happy to get home, open the package and put the brace on. Only one problem: my leg/knee is so fat, I couldn't get it to slide up and into place. This was a very high-end brace with a joint bend and adjustable sides and everything.
It wasn't going to bend for me.
I have to say in my mind I honestly had no idea my legs/knees had gotten that big. Or maybe I was just in complete denial about it. Looking at the brace, wedged halfway up my leg between my ankle and knee, there was no denying it now. And is it any wonder my knee continues to ache when it has to carry weight that it was never meant to carry day in and day out.
I humbly took the brace back to the store to return it today. When the cashier asked me why I was returning it, I looked her straight in the eyes and said 'My leg and knee are too fat for the brace.' I didn't give any other explanation, say it was made in China so it's too small for Americans, make a joke, tell her how I'm furiously working off the weight, etc. I left it at that. My leg and knee are too fat.
I didn't really feel bad about it, I just want to face the truth. When you know the truth, it's the truth that will set you free. Do I want to be free, or do I want to wallow in my excuses?
As for building my habit of tracking food and exercise, I did both. I had an event I had to attend last night, so I finished tracking my food from yesterday this morning, but I tracked. I put an alarm on my phone to ring at 9 pm to remind me to finish my tracking for the day. I think that will be another good tool for accountability.
Exercise for Tuesday 7/16/13:
23 minutes of yoga
Tracked food, went over my calories, but I tracked every single morsel. Yay for me.
Today's small lifestyle tweak: I put my entire water amount (10 - 8 oz. glasses) in a pitcher on the counter, to physically remind me to keep drinking. I also cut up a lemon and put it in a bowl (shaped like a lemon!) so I can pep up my water. Lemon also helps detoxify the body, so that is a good habit to continue.
The brace experience is kind of like the lemon slices: a bit sour at first, but a healthy reminder to keep my eye on the prize.