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Wednesday, July 17, 2013
This week has been good. Although I have had low energy and lots of headaches. My fiancé is worried about these headaches, but the problem is I haven’t been sleeping and everything gives me a headache – too much sugar, sugar withdrawal, caffeine (and/or lack of), lack of sleep, stress, being nice to stupid people, being thirsty (I’m ALWAYS thirsty and I drink 8-10 PINTS of water a day!), and the list goes on. I will say however that I am VERY proud of myself. I have stuck to my goal of getting up early every morning to do a 15 minutes workout on the Treadclimber. It hasn’t been easy being so tired, but I definitely feel good after.
This week I wanted to add three 30 minute workouts to my schedule to bump up my exercise, but I haven’t found the time or energy (or motivation?). I will resolve to start on Thursday (tonight I will not be home til midnight because I play in a pool league).
I have to find the middle ground for food. My sugar levels seem to be out of wack , my low energy energy makes me cranky and I have cravings when I know I am not hungry. I know I need to eat more protein and carbs but I have a hard time finding the right balance with fats and calories. I have come to find that I am very sensitive to aspartame and caffeine so I have been trying to avoid them. This week I will be working on balancing my diet in way that will give me more energy and hopefully alleviate some of these headaches.
Last night I came home and was super tired and super hungry and gave in to a microwavable pasta. Not surprisingly, I was still hungry after and ate a couple more things. Despite this, I stayed within my calorie range. This prompted me to go out and buy some groceries so I’m not tempted my fatty un-filling convenience foods over the next few days. Upon reflection I was also proud of myself for being so conscious about what I ate even though I was starving and that is usually when I break all the rules. Even after having the pasta, I was resolved to find something healthier to eat that would satiate me and not put my calories out of wack. It sounds simple, but this is usually when I have fallen off the wagon – I get hungry and nothing else matters, or I eat something bad and decide the whole day is moot and continue to eat crap I shouldn’t. I promised myself to be more aware of what I was putting in my body and I am succeeding. I fell asleep reading The Spark last night - and got my first good night of sleep all week. I feel confident about my choices lately and that feeling propels me forward.