Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Good Morning; The mailman brought a letter saying that the Army will pay DS about $400 a month until VA benefits kick in. It is a start. He is grateful for whatever he can get and survive. But now my DD is acting up, because while I was on vacation my DS tried to "commit suicide" from his deep depression. His GF called and I talked him down. In fact his puppy helped him wake up. When I got home, I have been working with him. He was not going to actually committed suicide - I know my son. It was a plea for help. I know my son enough if he wanted to actually kill himself he would have succeeded. In fact, I was talking to a counselor just yesterday about. I know if I could talk with him or text him I could talk him down.
I have done it before. He was in counseling and then something happened to his funding. He has filled out more paperwork for funding so hopefully it will kick in soon. He will then resume with his counselor. I told him that I would pay. He says I am not a charity case. My benefits need to pay.
But getting back to my DD, the GF send an email to my DD and got her all upset b/c she is over 500 miles away. She contacted me in Europe and I got in touch with DS. Now my DD wants me to tell DS not to come to the house when her daughter is in my care. This would make my DS feel like a monster. I feel it is a managed situation. My DS is actually ok now that we are back and his support system is here. He told me that he just did not want to get help. He was too depressed. I have talked to him on numerous occasions and he is fine and manageable. But when he was getting stupid letters from VA saying he has no medical benefits b/c he is making too much money or that his Vocational Rehab benefits would not activate b/c he is so injured that he can not work or go to school now. The plan that the Army set for him is falling apart. He felt worthless. I am a mother and DD must decide if she can trust her parents enough to make sure her daughter will be safe. She lives in an ideal world. But any mother who has a son with an combat injury and PTSD can understand. The sad part is that most people do not understand including family. I always say do not judge until you have walked in their shoes.