Wednesday, July 17, 2013
So I keep thinking when will it be time to quit losing weight and transition to maintenance? I get several people every week who say to me you are soooo skinny. I know that most of them have never seen me at this weight and they mean it as a compliment, but it makes me think. "Am I getting "too skinny"? When should I stop losing? When do I quit lowering my goal?" I know i dont need or want to look like this (it doesnt even motivate me):
(You can get that image here, if it does motivate you: http://www.womenshealthmag.com
Right now, I do have a goal weight of 125 and I have thought of lowering it again to 120 because I think it will push me to get extra fat off my middle and legs, which are things that other people don't see and that bother me personally. I know that my butt and thighs will always be large in proportion to the rest of my body, but that is something most runners come to terms with very early on in their running (and I have been running since I was in elementary school). Also, 120 is a place that I never thought I would be again and haven't been since day 1 of college back in 2001. The first time I stepped on my Wii and it sighed at me saying my ideal weight was 119 I almost sold it. There is something satisfying about know that I almost made it there and being a pit bull about my goals I want to make it.
I am constantly telling those people that right now my goal isn't about a number on a scale it is about improving my running. This is a mostly true statement, but for people who haven't been successful on their weight loss journey telling them that you want to get to 120 pounds sounds rude (I mean just ignore the fact that I worked off 50 pounds and my 50 is the same as your 50). So I make it all about the running and my body will stop losing when it stops and my dress size will quit getting smaller when it does. But it feels like a lie because like I said it is a MOSTLY true statement. When I got on the scale this morning and weighed in at 129.8 I wanted to call KFOR and rent a sky writer. Then I immediately thought of everyone else and knew that I really can't tell anyone.
Which led me here to write - do I stop and not be fully happy with where I am even though I am light years from that person a year ago or do I keep going and make me fully happy with me and endure the comments?
You tell me...what would you do?