Wednesday, July 17, 2013
I guess a month is long enough to put off doing something I am committed to doing. I.E. writing a blog several times a week. Actually I give myself the leeway to blog or journal several times a week, but I have not been journaling either.
When I moved from Butuan to Cebu I changed my address for the VA on their web site. But apparently it does not get to the clinic. So my meds have been being shipped to my old address. The first time it happened I got it forwarded by my friend. But he went back to the states and that was that.
Besides having not gotten my meds, I also had a prescription changed without my noticing. So my anti-depressant Trazadone was cut from 300 mg at bedtime to 50 mg at bedtime. I had a lot of extra but not enough to cover all this time. I started out by cutting back to 200 mg, then 150 mg, then 100mg. When I got to my last 30 pills of 50 mg each, I cut down to 50 mg at night. Then about 3 weeks ago I ran out completely. Luckily I had weaned myself down so the withdrawal from the prescription was minimal if at all. But the lack of the medication has gotten my depression back in a big way. My symptoms are usually lack of interest, and lots of anger. I have hardly been going to any of my AA meetings for the past 6 weeks, and my poor lady friend! I don't know how she has put up with me.
I have been trying to take care of this problem by phone for 3 months. I get a little progress on some things, but no trazadone. Last week I flew to Manila to try to take care of it in person. The Manila (maybe all?) clinic has a new policy of no walk-ins. I left a note that was to be given to the powers that be inside the clinic and was told someone would call me within 48hours. Funny! The 3rd day I was able to finally get through to a live person on the phone and he said he would again relay my problem to the clinic and pharmacy, and I would get a call from them within 2 days, but that I may as well just fly back to Cebu because there were no appointments available. My doctor had quit the VA and they were trying to find doctors to fill in for his patient load. So we got a same day flight back to Cebu at the highest price possible I think. I had also spent 5 nights at a hotel plus food for two.
The pharmacy did get ahold of me while I was waiting for my plane. He said he would have to get my doctor to rewrite the prescription. (What doctor?) Forgot to mention I was also trying to get an appointment because the hip pains have gotte3n so much worse recently. So I also requested a renewal of a pain med called tramadol that enhances the motrin I take.
I actually got the pain med today. But he sent me oxycodone instead. That is a narcotic that I take extremely seldom. I still have about 25 of the 30 I got last year. Now I have 30 more. Still waiting for the antidepressant.
At least writing about this is helping me a little with the anger management. I think. Just got mad at my friend for asking me something twice. Another amends I owe.
I also gained a kilogram in the week I spent in Manila.
A good thing, I got a call yesterday for a doctors appointment next Monday. Sort of wished I had just stayed in manila.
Other than that all is good. And Life is wonderful. or This too shall pass. ???