Tuesday, July 16, 2013
It's about time I cut the crap. Give up the excuses I've always held on to and just lay it all out on the table.
The reason I haven't lost weight is because:
1. I'm lazy.
2. I cheat.
Go figure. I do these two things and still havenít lost weight! All this time I've been trying to put up this facade of someone who tries and tries. Someone who desperately wants to lose weight and is somehow always the victim.
The truth is, I am a victim, but itís my own fault. I am the one responsible for all of this! I can control what I do every day. I can control what I put in my body, what I do with my legs, my arms... everything is in my control.
The truth is- I donít really want to lose weight, otherwise I would have done it by now. I need to want it, but before I can do that I think I need to become the person I want to be for the rest of my life.
This is my first step. Coming clean, cutting the crap and putting it all on the table. My second step will be to define what I want my life to look like, I have the ability to be who I want to be.
I want to get myself to work out before work in the morning before I can come up with excuses throughout the day. I want to have a clean and tidy home. I want to have dinner ready for my husband when he gets home from work.
I am going to start with going to the gym before work beginning tomorrow morning before I start work.
This is day one of the rest of my life.