Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Why is everything a battle? I really wish I could figure it out. I had a great spark friend, TRENTDREAMER, post a blog today that really resonated with me. He talked about positive thinking vs. being positive. Specifically, he said "If you are trapped in the "think 'positively'" mentality but are being held back by something that has always hindered you (you what it is), address the hindrance. I beg you. Until you do that, all of the "positive thinking" in the world will keep bringing you down when the hindrance keeps holding you back."
Here's the link in case you want to check it out:
So, this got me thinking. I am trapped. I am being held back from reaching my goals. The question is by what? I have thought it was work. I have thought it was sweets. I have thought it was eating out. I have thought it was not being able to workout like I want to because of my knee. Really, I don't know WHAT it is. I really don't. It is a mental thing. I need to really focus on what it could be that is holding me back and grasp it.
I'm back up to 150lbs after a weekend binge with family. Yep, you read it right, binge. I ate so much CRAP. Chips, cookies, ice cream - all the things that I feel I deprive myself of. But in reality, I don't deprive myself. I do eat these things in moderation so what is it.
I've been reading some articles recently about the spike in dopamine when you eat sweets and I wonder, maybe, just maybe, that is what it is. I wonder if there is something to this. Check out this article. What do you think? Could it be that this is what is holding me back?
Well, gotta run for now. I just wanted to get out what I was thinking right now or otherwise I might forget.