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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Someday...Someday...Someday, I will be thinner. Someday I will be fitter. Someday I will be where I want to go.

I have been struggling to gain traction. I have been struggling to keep going. I start and stop and start again. I whine and I become triumphant. Sometimes in a matter of minutes. Other times the whining stops me from realizing the true success. I feel sad that I have been on this journey of weight loss for over 10 years and I have not reached Onederland yet. I have gotten close and then I slid back into old habits and gained some of the weight back.

Unfortunately I notice that looking at what I have not accomplished leads to depression and more telling myself that each choice is of no consequence. I can eat whatever because I will start later and I will feel bad for all the treats that I missed. Then I eat more and more and more because later I will not be able to.

Well, I started the Beck Diet Solution. It talks about each choice mattering. It teaches how to change my thinking.

A while back Walmart had some interesting new cake mixes with matching frosting. I bought one of each flavor. They have been in my kitchen for a few weeks now. It has been hot and I had not made them. Well I decided on Friday that I wanted to go no sugar for 2 weeks. I just want to see what happens. I will choose at the end of that time if I want a weekly dessert or if I want to continue. I feel like a bit of a addict when it comes to sweets and I would like to stop eating them long enough that I know eating them is a choice not a compulsion.

So I justified having a piece on Sunday. I did not eat any yesterday but the family did. My husband asked if another one could be made. I said yes. Another one got started. I really want to know what it tastes like. However each choice matters. I don't even want to deal with the strength it takes to have try moderation. I will do that later.

No one ate the cake because it was too late by the time it came out of the oven we were tired and went to bed.

Anyway, I have this cake and the frosting can on the island in the kitchen. I am eating no sugar and today I am remembering that I have a goal. I can achieve my goal. I can get where I want to go if I am willing to realize that what I choose matters and keep my eye on the prize.

I am considering making myself a sugar free cheese cake for dessert or something with fruit. But, I will keep my eye on my goal.

Ready, set... OH yea I am already going on this journey.
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    emoticon Oh this battle goes on in my kitchen all the time. I cannot have it in the house.... and yet I bring it in... usually for someone else.

    Today I went and bought a salad kit. A little pricy but I'm worth it and I enjoyed it very much. It is a salad the rest of my family is not crazy about. So that is my treat today.
    I have to make a dessert in a few minutes for guests... perhaps what I have to do is stop making bedtime snacks for guests. Hmmm. Right now I have gotten into the habit of making a batch of cookie dough and dividing it into one pan portions, enough for one plate of cookies to put out in the evening. Between guests and my family each having a couple each they are quickly gone. It usually works but today is rice krispy squares. This is not a treat I usually care about but I don't trust myself. I wonder how small a batch I can make? Surely you can half the recipe! I can count out 20 marshmallows and 3 cups of cereal. See, I don't even need the box to know.
    If you are interested in trying some very different recipes that are healthy .... let me know. Quinoa chocolate muffins, choclate breakfast muffins (no flour) made with ground almonds, chick pea chocolate chip cookies. All are filling, full of fiber and protein and taste pretty good. So... as for sugar free cheesecake.. been there and done that. The problem for me is artificial sweeteners trigger hunger for me. Even though there is lots of protein there is not a lot of fiber and that splenda for whatever reason just makes me want to eat more. Took me a while to figure out it was a trigger food. I am not sure that is common but... sigh... better for me to just reduce the sugar if I'm going to do it. I usre hear you about onderland. It is all abou the food for me. I am getting better, for sure.... but .... it is not easy. I thought I had found a food buddy but she has dissapeared off the grid. Maybe I will join you for a sugar free streak. You can do it!
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    Comment edited on: 7/23/2013 3:28:16 PM
  • TEDYBEAR2838
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    You Go Girl!
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  • KOBER9999
    You are such the gifted writer! I love reading your blogs. This one is so motivational! You sound like your mind is set for the journey. Keep your eye on the prize and the goal will be attained!
    You Can Do It!
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    Comment edited on: 7/16/2013 2:25:34 PM
    you are so much braver than i. I would give in to this temptation, you GO!
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    emoticon You can do this and you will!! Stay focused and never give up the fight!! Hugs, Rose:) emoticon
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  • NANCY-
    Ah the journey... sometimes I feel like I am getting nowhere, but when I look at the changes that I have made over the years.
    You have made many changes and will make more.

    1706 days ago
    Every journey starts with a single step. And it doesn't matter if you have to take this first step every day. As long as you keep moving you'll gain momentum.
    Having a family to feed who does not adhere to your dietary guidelines makes it a bit more challenging of course.
    Stick the cake in the fridge so you don't see it :)
    Reducing sugar helps reduce cravings. Give it a couple of days and it will get easier.
    Oh, and by the way, there are no foods which you will have to give up forever! Moderation is key.
    You've got this!!!
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