Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Today is my 7 year anniversary with SparkPeople. When I first met and exceeded my goal weight in 2007, I thought I was set for life...then life happened.
We decided to try to have a baby and the stress of trying to get pregnant after years of fertility issues threw me far from the wagon. I gained 15 pounds during that process but I was still at a healthy weight.
During my pregnancy, I far exceeded my highest weight ever but I was so excited to be able to move again after I had her in 2010, that I couldn't wait to start exercising again. While I was nursing, the weight just fell off and I was again 9 pounds within my goal weight. During that time I ate better, but didn't fully track my meals.
Then about a year later I took a new job (at the same company I'd been with for over a decade) and with it came new stresses that I hadn't had before. During this same time frame I was dealing with major financial issues and trying to get through school and the pounds just kept packing on.
So now I sit at my highest non-pregnancy weight ever. And it sucks. I keep trying and I keep failing. There are different social aspects to this job that make it hard to say no. I will try to go exercise but there are many days where I feel like I'm the keeper of everyone and have to sit at my desk while everyone else goes out to eat or exercise. So it keeps me unmotivated.
My sleep schedule is not a schedule at all. My husband is a stay-at-home dad right now and they sleep late which means everyone stays up late. Which means I'm always tired. I keep wanting to get on a schedule but when 10:00 rolls around, I think, "ah just a few more minutes", then next thing I know, it's 11:30. I think if I can get my night times more on a schedule then I'll feel better and will be able to get things on the right track again. I just need to sit down and give it some serious thought.
But it's not all bad. I just finished my degree (yay!) and the financial stuff is starting to ease up a bit. I took care of my mind, now I need to work on my body.