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I am so tired!!!!

Monday, July 15, 2013

I look at where I was last year at this time and I was just getting started on my healthful lifestyle...I did great until mid October when I had both of my daughters move back home. Nothing like having your home invaded by 4 adults and 2 little ones, a Great Dane and a Pomeranian. Did I mention I lived in an apartment that was almost 1000 sq ft. Within a month 2 adults the 2 little ones and the Pom were moved out and in to their own home. Then there was a kitten added to the mess. We had a death in the family and I just decided that it was impossible to continue the clean happy lifestyle. I know it makes ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. Life is crazy so make it more crazy by gaining back all but 5-10 lbs. I am back at the bottom of the process.

I can say that I have learned that making outrageous promises or proclamations are the first step toward failure. I am trying to avoid that pit. I pray that I will have the courage to say no to myself when it comes to making unhealthy choices. I find that the older I get the harder it is to get motivated. I turned 55 on June 6th I have had a very very difficult time with depression. For the first time in my life I felt like I was on the down hill slide and that I had wasted my life. I am still fighting with this and the longer I put off going to the gym and getting my routine back on track or don't put healthy food in my refrigerator the harder it is to kick the depression.

I am back and plan to stay.


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KATHYSCOLLIES 7/15/2013 10:42PM

    Patty it is sooooooooooo wonderful to see you again!! I've missed you my friend, and I'm glad that you are okay - or at least mostly there!

I understand what you are saying, I keep finding things so overwhelming that I tend to simply ignore them, which of course only makes the whole situation worse, and I know that - I really do.

We both have the knowledge, don't we - it's just the part about using that knowledge in a productive manner that seems to be the problem.

How are the boys doing? I bet they're both growing like weeds! Are they close enough to you now that you get to see them often?


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SHAPINGUP4ME247 7/15/2013 9:51PM

    Trying to focus on making the next right choice, one choice at a time and making getting 8 hours of sleep my only priority for a few weeks helps me pull out of my depression. However you do it, know that you can do it and that there are lots of people hoping for the best for you. emoticon

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THOMS1 7/15/2013 8:28PM

    emoticon back. You are so right about not making unrealistic expectations to ourselves. Take one step at a time and do the best you can. I spend half of my time it seems arguing with myself to stay on track. Such is life. I miss my nutrition and workout buddy. She has been on a trip since the middle of May and is due back at the end of this week. We keep each other honest. emoticon

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    The first step to change is awareness and you are there! There are so many life triggers we all deal with and we can't always control how they will impact us. Over the past three years since I lost my only child, I have found having a gratitude journal, making one small goal each day if that's all I can handle, and giving myself permission to live in the moment and not dwell on past mistakes/failures, and just take one tiny step forward. Beating ourselves does no good. I agree with you about not making unrealistic goals. It is more realistic to make small achievable goal and when that small goal is met, choose a new small goal. I commend you for your positive outlook in saying you can make a change. emoticon

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