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A Letter To Myself

Monday, July 15, 2013

Dear Self,

You've lived many years with this body of mine and I feel for you with all the ups and downs in life. For all you've gone through, thick and thin. You started out being a very skinny child with me and my mother didn't ever think that I'd have a weight problem. Ha! That didn't last long! I started to get chubby when in grade school and then all through school until high school, when I worked hard to slim down and then several years after getting married and then with not being able to get pregnant and having a low thyroid, I steadily climbed back up in weight and then with being diagnosed with Rheumatoid Arthritis, I literally gave up ever losing weight, with being on Prednisone and with knowing the horror story of that causing weight! So you had to live in this chubby body with me all these years until I found SparkPeople, being praised on a WW message board! And then things started looking up! I bet you felt that there was hope afterall! You have gotten so tired of being overweight, of people staring at you, of being the fattest person in the room, of not being able to find nice looking clothes, for having a very low self esteem, for hating to be in photos, for being so ashamed of being in this body. But now you have seen me shrink this body to the point that you know this works. You know that with me increasing exercise and with watching what I eat and with tracking everything, that the weight does come off! You know that I have to keep strong, that I have to tell myself every day that I can do it, that I can eat my 5 freggies each day, that I can eat healthy fats. I know that there are days where I feel more weak, when I feel that I could eat everything I see, but I know that if I just listen to you, I can ignore those things and choose healthy. I know that you deep down want to be in a healthy body. I will keep listening to you and all during those future tough times, I will take heed to you because you and I both, want to be healthy more than anything in this life. We know that we are so worth it. We have worked so hard to get where we are. I can do it! With listening to you, I can do it! Hugs to you, Self. You've stuck with me and I'll show you that I can do it! We'll know the feeling of being healthy once again. We will feel alive and free as a bird and happy to be able to get around so much better and so happy to be cute and not chubby! I will love to wear cute clothes, that look good too! I'll show you, Self. I'll show you. I will! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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CAROLMAID 8/8/2013 10:01AM

    I've always thought that talking to ones self made sense! I do it all the time! someone in this house is always saying WHAAAAAAAT? LOL
Seriously tho, Karen, way to go! Great blog, great thinking! You are awesome, my friend.....
Carol

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THINRONNA 7/25/2013 9:10AM

    This blog makes me smile! You are so wonderful.

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BARBANNA 7/22/2013 2:01PM

    God bless you for being so tough. Your journey has been so much harder with the throid and RA but you have excelled. Even if you don't loose all the weight your perception is more positive and that makes a great deal of difference. This is quite a transition from last year when you were so doubting and frustrated. I am very happy for you! Never give up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KIKIMAV 7/21/2013 3:55PM

    What a lovely post!!! It made me feel so warm and positive!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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TIGER_LILY_613 7/20/2013 1:44PM

    Woohoo ! You can do this ! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MORTICIAADDAMS 7/18/2013 2:34PM

    Loved the blog. Keep up the self talk. You are doing great!

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CTOMEK1-123 7/16/2013 9:27AM

    Don't we all have that inner voice telling us how ugly our bodies are especially as we age.

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MARLINDA5 7/16/2013 1:48AM

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Great blog - thank you for sharing - you are doing so GREAT!!!

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GRACEOMALLEY 7/15/2013 10:47PM

    Great! Keep positive.
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MARYANNB25 7/15/2013 10:22PM

    Excellent letter. You did a wonderful job of writing it, Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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_LINDA 7/15/2013 8:28PM

    The first step to gaining control is to love yourself. Nothing else can be done without that. You have to feel you are worth it. I see seeds of that in this letter. Time to water them and let them grow into the beautiful flower that you truly are! We may be stuck in a disease riddled body for which there is no cure, but it doesn't have to rule who we are. We are better than it. Only by giving our bodies the greatest care possible can we nurture them back to the best health possible. Eating healthy does help, regular exercise does help, keeping up a positive attitude and making sure you are on the best possible medications that will work for you with the fewest side effects.
I am grateful to my Dr. for never putting me on prednisone. She viewed it as a last resort. I am sorry when I hear Dr.'s using that as the first line of attack. It shouldn't be so. There are so many better ones now.
There is no 'I can do it', only I WILL do it!
Karen, you have got this!
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HAWTGRANNY2014 7/15/2013 8:11PM

    Karen you tell that brain to hush. You are a beautiful, caring, sweet person and you are worth every minute. Great blog.

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WHITNEYTEACHER 7/15/2013 8:08PM

    Great Letter emoticon Great Attitude emoticon emoticon

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KITT52 7/15/2013 5:55PM

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LETHA_ 7/15/2013 4:49PM

    Most excellent letter!! Well done. Thanks for sharing.
Letha
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DEDICATED2HIM 7/15/2013 4:14PM

    Great letter Karen. WE all need to learn how to talk to ourselves and most importantly, how to LISTEN to ourselves. You absolutely can do it. You have the power right inside you now. Learn how to use your strength to benefit yourself instead of working against yourself.

I know you can do this. And I'm right behind you.
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CTUPTON 7/15/2013 3:03PM

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FITGRL124 7/15/2013 2:06PM

    What a great letter to yourself! I've missed you lady!! I haven't been around much and that has GOT to change. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHERYL_ANNE 7/15/2013 1:55PM

    Yes you can my dear - you can absolutely, positively, 110% do it!

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4-1HEALTHYCYNDI 7/15/2013 1:12PM

    Wonderful loving letter. Great compliment to your self and commitment. You can do this!

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JETHROMAMA 7/15/2013 1:03PM

    You can do it!

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KIPPER_KID 7/15/2013 12:59PM

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