Monday, July 15, 2013
Today I feel as though I have discovered water. Haha
I hadn't been able to drink water for at least the last 2 weeks or so, so when I tried yesterday and I could drink it without feeling like a spiky rock was in my stomach or my throat clogging up, I tossed back 28 more ounces (in addition to like, the sip I had when I was testing my limits). It feels so good to be able to drink water again and I don't feel as heavy when I walk around and stuff. My body feels lighter. Like everything inside me started to function again (imagine a large old dusty machine that has just been set into motion after so long and the gears start turning). The moment I started drinking the water, was the same moment the terrible headache that was behind my left eye went away. I had taken pain pills at the same time I started drinking the water, so I know the pain pills didn't do it, because they hadn't had time to start working yet.
The importance of water is now clearer than ever. Even though I know water is great for weight loss, it sticks in my mind even better when I have experienced just how vital it is in general. Yes, I've known it was vital ever since I starting having health class in middle school. But to experience a situation where you can't give your body something it needs, and then your body starts to function incorrectly and crave it, creates a different/deeper understanding. It makes me appreciate water more. It makes me feel like "Yes, I COULD choose soda or some other sugary drink, but in what way will that positively affect my body? What ways will it negatively affect my body?"
As a young adult, I'm always one to ask my mom to bring home a juice or soda. I never drink water unless it is a last resort. I literally whined if my mother said "No, go drink water." When I started my healthy lifestyle change, I began to drink water more consciously (for weight loss purposes) but still not near my daily intake needs. (I assumed I should just ease into it and increase water as it gets easier to drink and as I get more fond of it. Some days I slipped and had no water at all, unless it came from food sources or non-water liquids.) Now, since I have FELT just how necessary it is to have it, even though it's not the tastiest, I will definitely drink it on the days my body tolerates it (since my illness comes in cycles, there will come a time again, where I won't be able to drink water or eat much and will have to switch back to pedialyte and stuff). I feel like now, I'll be drinking it just because I know it keeps me functioning properly and because I know I feel better. It's only a plus that water helps with weight loss.
I can definitely say I needed to experience this just so I wouldn't dehydrate myself willingly (as in not drinking water because it didn't taste good). This is proving to be one big tough journey consisting of learning how to take care of yourself inside and out, not just out. At least now healthy lifestyle change means a total health change to me and not just lose weight healthily.
Before, even if I said I wanted to be healthy, my real goal was to be thin. When I thought of thin me I thought happy carefree thoughts. Now I can truthfully say I want to be healthy. I actually smile when I think of myself completely healthy.