Monday, July 15, 2013
I often wonder if things will ever get easier on me (it'll never be easy, but any easier would be helpful). Today was a harder day, for sure.
I sent an email to the new neurologist because I really feel he didn't do a good job when I saw him on the 1st. He also dismissed several of the things I was saying, did a crappy physical exam, and didn't seem to put effort into understanding how widespread the symptoms of EDS are. I basically said if he is unwilling or unable to put in the time and effort I truly need that he should let me know so I can find another doctor. I also explained why this is so important: I had an hour long crying fit this morning before I went to sleep, which created explosions of pain in the base of my head. Sleeping didn't help and when I went to the bathroom after waking up, after maybe 10 minutes of straining to get stuff out, my right leg went dead. As I tried to walk back to the couch I was dragging my leg and pulling it forward only with my abs. It felt like it was cased in concrete. After I laid back down I flipped on my stomach and hung my head off the edge of the couch; the top of my head burned but the base of my head felt a bit better. But every time I get up and move, especially bending over or going up stairs, it's horrible and I nearly go unconsious.
Unfortunately, just as I was about to send the email, my cat started freaking out. Tane was screaming for like 30-45 mins. I had to lock him in the bathroom with me and I tried to rub his belly, but he was so upset. He finally pooped then threw up and seemed to feel better - he stopped screaming at least - but he was still not acting normal. I knew it wouldn't be safe for me to drive, so I was calling and texting people to come help, but no one answered. I sent a message to the woman who's come by a few times with her son to help with house chores, and she was able to come up with her husband. They spent a few hours with me waiting for the vet to check Tane out, then brought us back home. It seems he was so upset about something that he became constipated which made him throw up (I just learned this happens). He might have been upset about a spider bite or some noise he heard, but I think he was upset because of my crying fit this morning. They sent us home with some painkillers that will calm him down and hopefully help him sleep - good because he wants food and can't have it tonight. If he has more problems then I need to take him to his regular vet for xrays and blood work. But I can't even afford the $132 it cost for tonight; no way I can afford all of that. So I'm hoping he's going to be okay once he rests and calms down. I downloaded a cat game of a mouse running around the screen for him, but he likes to just watch it and purr, so I've had him sitting near me watching it.
I am facing way too much crap right now. I just don't know what to do. I had to fight this huge increase in symptoms today to take care of Tane, but I just feel like hell. Nothing that can help me seems to be going anywhere. I feel like I'm in the middle of a crapstorm and I can't get out.