Monday, July 15, 2013
As I mentioned in the previous blog, I know I've gained weight in the last year or so--basically started gaining at about the time when I knew that my grad schedule was stepping up the pace and the stress grew exponentially. I also know that at least some of that weight is probably fat, since I've gained a couple of inches or so in the gut.
I didn't write the previous blog because I was expecting solutions; really the only solution at this point is to lose the stress and that won't happen until I either quit grad school or I graduate, and after all the time and sacrifice and shear hard work I've put into this degree, quitting really isn't an option (not saying that I haven't been tempted a time or ten, but quitting really isn't part of my vocabulary). Which is not to say that I'm going to quit living a healthy lifestyle. I just know there's only so many things I can control right now. Even if there was something I could theoretically do--a major diet change, an increase in exercise, whatever--I just don't have the time, energy, or brain power to deal with that right now. I'm already at maximum capacity plus some. There's a reason I set my goals for this round of the BLC as basic and simple--that's all I can handle right now. And I'm struggling just to manage even that.
In 6 months or so, I will re-evaluate, and at that point I will consider things like changes in diet or exercise. Maybe more like 9 months, to give me sometime to sleep and remember what it feels like to be human. but for now, this is the best I've got.
But... good news. Yesterday I wore a dress I wore on the cruise 2 years ago--and 20 pounds lighter. Sure, I know that I've gained a bit in inches, but it still fit, so I'm guessing at least part of that weight gain isn't fat. And I looked and felt pretty good wearing it *grin*
In any case, I'm still here and I'm still in the race. I may be slower than the turtle, and the progress may not always be obvious, but I won't give up.