Sunday, July 14, 2013
This week was a very hard week for me. A few things happened that led to emotional eating... or emotional binge. I felt hungry, I felt empty. If I took the time to explore my inner thoughts and feelings I would know that it wasn't that I was hungry but that I was lonely. I can only address it now because I had a pretty good day with people.
I have moved around a lot and I have amazing friends but none of them live near me. I do not have any close friends near me. It's lonely. It sucks. I told myself awhile ago that I need to just go to cafes and hang out when I have time but I have yet to do that.
I was so upset this weekend that I ate and ate and ate. I haven't sunk in those murky waters in a long time. I have had dark times before but I do always find my way out as I continuously ask God for peace. I am having a late dinner tonight with a friend but was hungry about 2 hours ago. I thought of many different things to eat but settle for yogurt with fruits and nuts. That was so much better than the other options.
It's time to work hard. I am going kick butt this week. Walking, stationary bike, pilates and yoga. I got this. And next time I am going to address the problem and work through it.