Sunday, July 14, 2013
Since the shirts were on sale for $5 a piece this week, I decided I could afford a couple. I ended up ordering a couple of women's fitted shirts, but this one I though was really funny:
I know I'm a little crazy and I also know I'm not at my ideal weight (for my thought process), but hovering at a 50 pound loss lets me know I have lost it enough to have this shirt.
I was looking at my last pictures and found that I've been pretty much maintaining for most of the last year. There has been a 10 pound hovering and right now I'm in the middle of that hovering.
I think I'm getting back into the need to finish off this weight loss mode again. I think part of it is the change in tracking, so I'm more likely to track again. The other part of it is being a leader in the Hungry For Change team.
Many people, including myself will congratulate me on the weight I have lost, but once again, I've stopped in the middle of a project. I've hit the "good enough" phase. That's just not going to be good enough this time. I may have taken a little longer than originally planned, but I will get it done. I keep looking at the pictures and saying how fat I still look. I'm at the weight I was while I was in college and going on adult vacations with my mother. Those pictures I thought I looked fat too, and that was about the weight I'm at now.
I may look a lot better than I did, but I know I can look better. I have a final goal of 150 and I will get back to that, but I also wonder what 145 would look like, since I haven't been that since early High School. I stopped at 150 for the beginning of my adulthood while I was still fairly active. It wasn't until I had a boring sit-down job that I started to gain weight around 26.
Eventually I want to get more Spark Shirts, but I want to see medium or small in those shirts! I'd love to see those sizes I was in at my ideal weight!
Today's Holidays: Bastille Day, Tape Measure Birthday 1868, Pandemonium Day and National Grand Marnier Day.