Sunday, July 14, 2013
I am working through the book "Beck diet solution." www.beckdietsolution.com
This last week I had lots of things come up that I was not expecting so I did not get my daily reading in. I recommitted to reading it this morning. Today's task is "give yourself credit."
This is my biggest struggle. I am an all or nothing thinker for myself. I will give you the benefit of the doubt. I will give it to my kids, hubby friends even strangers. But, if I did not preform perfectly I will really beat myself up.
Today's reading explained how that can be detrimental. I get it. But, I really struggle with it.
Today was a trial. My daughter has been gone all week at Girl's camp. She came back cranky and told me how terrible of a mother I was because I wanted her to do a couple of things before I let her and her little brother watch the television. Nothing big. The chores would have taken less than an hour two if she was really, really slow. But, she instead spent all day resisting.
So I spent all day feeling grumpy. Not a good choice. I know I am a good mother. I know the chores were reasonable.
I am learning to eat better. I am learning to exercise. Much of my behavior is changing for the better. I just refuse to give myself credit for it.
I need this one. This one is important and will serve me well.
I have taught my kids to do this. It is time to teach myself.