Not ready to say goodbye!
Saturday, July 13, 2013
I've been through a lot of ups and downs at my age. One would think that I could get a grip on this but maybe I'm not ready.
Trace has been in my families lives for more than 13 years now. He is the sweetest Sheltie one could have, full of personality and so obedient. He just turned 14 June 1 and was so full of himself. But since that day he's been on a slow ride down hill. I keep telling myself that he is like an old man in his 80s and little by little things will start to change. But maybe I'm just can't deal with it. He has lost is eyesight completely in his left year and I believe most of his right. He was extremely dehydrated last week and needed fluids. He stopped eating all of his food but seem to love green beans and hotdogs (he was never fed table food before).
Today my 21 year old (home from college) decided he needed a bath. Since then Trace has been very sluggish, shaky and can barely stand on his own 4 legs. I did lap a few swallows of water, but doesn't have must strength for much more. We sit and wait and see what comes next. Will I wake up to a tail wagging tomorrow? I'm not sure. But I did have a chat with Trace and told him if he wanted to go to sleep tonight and not wake up, then it's ok.
If tomorrow morning he is still with us, then we will think about the next step.
The test of my strength is upon me.