I'd be lying if I said I wasn't jealous of my two sisters.
My oldest sister, Brenda, has always been beautiful, slender, ambitious, and NEVER had any problems with her weight. Ever. She's had three kids, and lost the baby weight without a struggle.
My other sister, Deirdre, like me, had some weight issues starting in late high school, and in college. But, she is gorgeous, and late in college, she lost quite a bit of weight, and is now a THIN personal trainer. I remember in middle school and high school, when I met boys in older grades, I was often recognized as "the girl with the hot older sister." Gee, THANKS...jerks.
Unlike Deirdre, I didn't lose a bunch of weight and keep it off. I lost SOME weight my freshman year at the University of Iowa, but I didn't keep it off much longer than a few months.
I don't usually think about it too much until it's time for a family event that we have to dress up for. My sisters can throw on any dress they own, and look gorgeous, no problem. Me? I look for something that squeezes here, is loose there, covers up this, and will look good with a cardigan, because no WAY will I be exposing my fat arms in a sleeveless dress.
I'm tired of it. I'm not here just to bitch and talk about how jealous I am of my sisters, I've got a point. I know I will never look just like them...but they are motivation for me. I know that once I've lost all the fat covering my facial features, I will be seen as ONE of THREE beautiful sisters, and not as "the fat sister" or "the girl with the hot older sister."
Arms are one of my areas I'm most sensitive about. So I've started lifting in the past weeks though, because I realize that I need to be doing some strength training along with my cardio routine (which I've stuck to for 3 weeks now! YAY!)
Other good news, I just bought a dress for Smart Girl Summit! And it's a size 10 rather than a size 12!! Do you know what this means?? I've lost INCHES! SQUEE!! I'm VERY happy about that. I haven't measured, but it must be true. OK, OK, back to the dress....It was on sale, have a look at me in the dressing room!
WOOHOO! I cannot WAIT for Smart Girl Summit!! I'll have to write a blog about what exactly it is.....or you could just google it ;)