I have been doing lots of thinking, thinking and thinking lately. I have been trying to understand myself a little when it comes to eating healthier and working at getting my excess weight off.
I feel like I am my own worse enemy, in fact I know I am.
Monday's will always come! (at least as long as I am on this side of the grass). Also tomorrow will always come. WHY do I sabotage myself?? I can do this, I know I can. I really do like myself for the most part. When it comes to doing other things I get my back up, I can be tenacious, I can strive until I do it, yet with this problem...I am befuddled or maybe not?
I chose my emoticons for a reason. The face is perplexed, as I do a lot of self reflection. The walker is because right now with torn hamstrings and pulled gluts, I need it to get around a bit. The sun because it is a beautiful day and I am very thankful to be alive. The turtle to remind me that I must remember to do it, one day or one step at a time. Perhaps one meal at a time.
I did not get fat overnight. I will not lose it overnight. I want to be healthier!! I want to fit into nice clothes. I want to live.
Trying to understand myself has led me down many paths. I am not sure which one is correct, or if they may all or in part contribute to my failure. I am generally happy in my life!! Except for my weight.
So I am working on daily reflections that include this problem along with my other daily reflections. This blog spot will be boring for a bit, I am afraid. I must do this.
I went back to school last year at age 56 and graduated with honours!! I was older than anyone else in the class, including the instructor. I now need a job. Have been applying, time will tell. I was a nurse and because of health reasons, I can no longer work in nursing. I took Medical Office Administration. I just worry that employers will not consider me because the pay as an MOA is less than an RN. I am OK with that. I just want to work!!
So I am being positive, I spend a little time talking to myself, before I get up so I am positive from step one. This is good because with the sore muscles, I can't get up too fast. Also at the end of the day I spend time reflecting!! Me time!!
It is a beautiful day and I want to get lots done. So off I go.
Thank you Spark People for being here.