Saturday, July 13, 2013
I come to you mildly frustrated, but attempting to maintain high spirits.
The past few weeks, the scale (and tape measure) have told me I'm getting bigger. 7 lbs and 1 inch [on waist/hip], to be exact.
This is NOT what I'm trying to do, here.
I am still eating clean, although I tend to splurge when I'm around family (story of my life)...but we're talking fresh salads daily, dressings with only 2-3 natural ingredients, homemade granola bars, home-cooked meals, spinach and fruit smoothies, and healthy fats [in small doses] like avocados and coconut oil. I even eat about 90% vegetarian, these days.
So what's changed? Well, two things.
1) Thanks to a fellow sparker, I discovered that because my goal date was set to like January 2012 (oops!), no matter how much I was working out, my calorie range was set fast to the minimally safe calorie range. I set my goal date for something more reasonable (Feb 2014), and for the first time in almost 2 years, my calorie range went up. So for a month now, I've been eating 1500-1800 calories instead of 1200-1500.
2) I've started weight training. Don't get me wrong, I've always done strength training, but it was more of the 3-lb-dumbbells-and-Jane-Fonda-
video style of strength training. So I went from literally only lifting 3-5 lb weights in high reps, to using 15 lb dumbbells at home for free weights and WAY more on the machines at the gym.
I know that weight training can add weight initially, but I've never heard of it adding inches. Still, I'm hoping this gain in size is temporarily. Nonetheless, I will continue to monitor it carefully. In the meanwhile, I'm staying positive. I feel there's simply no way I won't be healthier if I continue to strength train and eat clean. All roads have bumps in them.
With that being said, my boyfriend and I are going to visit his father in his hometown next week, this will be the first time they've seen each other in 3 years and the first time I've ever met him or been to my boyfriend's old town. The idea of meeting his family, oldest friends, and even potentially some ex-girlfriends have caused some deep-rooted insecurities to bubble to the surface, especially since the visit is happening during this little weight gain. So wish me luck and courage, I want to be confident in myself, both inside and out, and make a good impression :)