Saturday, July 13, 2013
Thursday, July 11, 2013 was my 5th year anniversary here on SparkPeople or as we say here on Spark, my Sparkaversary. I did not post the date on any of my teams celebration lists because I did not feel like I had anything to celebrate. In fact, I was feeling frustrated and embarrassed that in five years all I had done was lose & regain the same 20 lbs. I look around and see so many people having success and think, "What's wrong with me, why can't I do it?" One of the lovely friends I have made here on Spark, TEDDYBEAR662, who I know as Missy remembered my Sparkaversary without any reminder from me. She posted it on our team and friends wished me well. Then I read a blog by JUSTYNA7 who joined Spark the same week as I did. There are just a few Spark Class of July 6-12 team/classmates left that are still active on Spark. I thought a lot about it and I realized I have something to celebrate! Life is more than just how much I weigh and that is certainly true about my life here on Spark People!
First and foremost, I have made SO many wonderful, inspiring, supportive, funny, helpful, caring Spark friends. They are always here waiting and willing to share all the things that happen in my life, not just my weight loss journey. These friends have supported me through so much more. They were here for me three years ago when my husband faced a life threatening heart problem and he had to have an ICD (internal cardiac defibrillator) placed in his chest to insure his heart wouldn't just stop and continue to beat regularly. I worried not only about losing him but how we would survive financially since he could no longer work. They prayed with me and comforted me when I was at my lowest and felt like I had no where to turn. When I had to be strong for everyone else in my life, here I could let it all out and just be me. This month they were here for me again as my husband went in for a total knee replacement with words of advice, support & encouragement. They have been here to celebrate my birthdays,wedding anniversaries, daily joys and problems, and small victories along the way. Day & night I always know I can come here and share.
Then I thought am still here five years later doing the same thing! Wait, I AM STILL HERE! I haven't given up on myself. I am currently working a a 10,000 steps a day streak and it's been 18 days so far. I have consistently logged on to Spark for 560 days. I lost 5 lbs in the last two weeks.
It seems I've gained more than I lost, but just look at what I've gained....amazing friendships, knowledge, and the ability to persevere. So I realize I do have something to celebrate.