How many years have I been on the dieting merry-go-round? Well, more honestly, it was the not-so-merry-go-round.
Well, I've been dieting since I was in 8th grade, and that was a looooooooooooong time ago. More recently, in the past 7 years, I have lost down to today's weight (265) and regained all the way back up to 302 a total of 3 times. This time is different.
Today, I hit 265 again. But THIS TIME, I am NOT on a diet and therefore can't stop the diet and regain.
This time, losing the 36 pounds has been almost effortless. I would say effortless, because it's been that easy, but of course I have put a little bit of thought and effort into it. But not like I did when I dieted!
When I dieted, I cut out food groups or types of foods or messed around with when I ate and did all sorts of mental yoga with the food, plus all the games I played with the scale just to get it to move! And the plateaus! Oh my the plateaus! I made all sorts of very very hard efforts to lose those 36 pounds. I fought hard for every ounce. Which is why, by the time I hit 265, I was so tired of dieting. I would tell myself I needed just a tiny bit of a break from the diet, then I would get back to it.
Well, we all know where exactly THAT leads to!
This time, there have been no scale games. There has been no diet. And this time, I have consistently lost every single week. Every week! No plateaus! No heroic efforts! Just a sane, normal relationship with food, and here I am, 4 1/2 months later and 36 pounds lighter!
I'm not breaking any records for speed, but that has never been my concern. And I have certainly lost these 36 pounds a lot faster this time, and without a diet! Who'd a thought?
As well, my body has shifted more, too. I wear smaller clothes with this 36 pound loss than I did with the same previous 36 pound losses. But it is NOT because of exercise.
Honestly, I think just having a sane, normal, healthy relationship with food is simply the best and most right thing I could have ever done for myself. I am not letting go of this! I wouldn't trade my relationship with my food now for anything, even if were to hit a plateau. Nothing is worth letting go of this total sanity and normalcy I have now with food!
I feel as if I am walking through a new doorway. I've been right here at this very place so many times before, but I've never been below this scale point. This time, I have all the confidence in the world that I will.
And it's all because I stopped dieting and started living. I chose sanity and normalcy with food over a diet! For that decision, I am so totally grateful!