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Where's the "life" in my lifestyle?

Saturday, July 13, 2013

What's wrong with me?...::I asked myself as I left the gym yesterday evening.
I was surprised at how little I enjoyed my run...::actually did a double take after the thought sunk in fully. emoticon
Even today's afternoon swim felt dull....:::I thought to myself as I tracked those swim minutes on SP's tracker. It seems that in the past few weeks I haven't really "enjoyed" my fitness routines like I used to. My fitness Spark was missing. I knew it and it bothered me.

Minutes::....more fitness minutes....& more. Spark points emoticon meeting EVERY goal emoticon...::excelling with whatever challenge was posted on my BLC Team. Numbers. Simply numbers....::& time steals by.
I did say STEAL because that was what had happened. My balance was off.

What's happened to my mindset...::: WHY am I doing this?
All of this tracking, accumulating numbers....:::& for what reason?
I think I've fallen into a numbers mindset for some silly reason to accumulate as many points as I can for my team.....:::so much so that I've lost sight of the JOY of Fitness....:::my old comfortable friend, Fitness.

Well, I don't mind saying that, that conclusion rang TRUE. I woke up from my numbers game, and spent the day in prayer. Prayer for wisdom, and direction.

So, tonight I decided to run like I used to & taking a deep breath sailed right into my 5K routine ...::forgetting the NUMBERS - the burned calories, the minutes/mile and pace settings etc. I made myself just focus on the scenery around me as I sped by, and left the numbers behind...Lol!
I thoroughly enjoyed my run tonight. Only at the end did I take note of the time and calories. It was a relief. I laughed out loud. That run was FUN.

This evening I was able to share with another mom my love for fitness, and she shared with me that she had been off track for too long. Would I go running with her? she asked. I said, you bet! Sharing a common interest is a blessing to me.
That's what it's all about - enjoying LIFE, People, Every day and the JOY each moment brings. I will never again lose sight of WHY I do what I do.

Thank you for reading. I hope the lesson that I learned can be helpful to someone else. Moderation is wise ....yes, and that includes Sparking. emoticon Lol.
I SPARK to know that I'm not alone, but I must Spark in moderation. I can't let numbers drive me. And I run for the pure pleasure of running! May it ALWAYS be this way!

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    Great insight and reminder to keep fitness FUN!! emoticon
    1702 days ago
    You are so right!! I've just recently realized that I am very prone to the "numbers" way of thinking & letting it become the goal instead of fitness. Thanks for a wonderful reminder & for being such a great teammate!
    1704 days ago
    A reminder that I needed to hear today...the important thing is not to lose the joy...and when you feel it going to go back to the source! Thanks, Laura!

    1705 days ago
    You are such a wise woman! So glad you have your answer, your balance. We all need that and sometimes we tend to forget...

    Proud of you and love the fact that you still keep your Den in mind...but balanced so that your Life and family take priority...

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    1709 days ago
    Thank you for the blog. I liked the title because it captures the notion of the fine line between dedication and compulsion. Glad you again found the fun in your fitness.
    1710 days ago
    Great blog, thanks for sharing. Years ago, I was on a piece of exercise equipment at a local gym and was bored beyond belief. I realized there was no way I would be doing this in a year now so I got off and quit that gym. Best thing I ever did because I got back to doing what I enjoyed which was playing squash and racquetball.

    All this fitness has to be fun or we won't continue...but you already know that!
    1710 days ago
    So happy you found your balance again, and even happier that you knew HOW to find it!! I have been having fun playing the numbers game this weekend, but I am looking at it as a fun way to get my mojo back. Enjoy your runs, and whatever else life brings you! emoticon
    1711 days ago
    As helpful as spark is, we can not let it take over our REAL life and the people who depend on us. Spark MUST be a second place....
    1711 days ago
    I love fitness too, but it needs to be fun.
    1711 days ago
  • MIRAGE727
    I love love love your signs of inspiration, Laura! I truly enjoyed your blog. Run because you can. You because you're free! Run for your life!
    1712 days ago
    Well put, Laura. I too sometimes just look at the numbers and lose the focus. I was thinking this morning at zumba that I need to appreciate that my body is healthy and happy even if at 61, it is a bit lumpy. I'm so glad you got your joy back again. Yay!!! emoticon
    1712 days ago
    What a great blog! Your message has truly hit home for me. Thanks so much. I need to go back to the fun and let the rest resolve itself. I need more 'life' i my life. Thanks again.
    1712 days ago
    Great blog! Thanks for your words of wisdom! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1712 days ago
    1712 days ago
    Laura, You are so wise. I love these challenge and I want to be a good teammate, but if I get into obsess mode it doe s me and noone any good. There are just some parts of these challenges I have to give myself permission to not do. Thanks for addressing this. Also, my runs in the summer are never fun. The humidity zaps me so much I can hardly do anything else the rest of the to figure that out really.
    1712 days ago
    Laura, I do believe I see a emoticon over your head! "By George, I think she's got it!'! emoticon

    Since I'm an accountant, the numbers are my "thing" and I find myself obsessing over them, sometimes to the detriment of my joy. Your blog speaks beautifully to that danger, and is a blessing to all of us who struggle in keeping our balance on this journey. emoticon for the reminder of what is truly important!

    Well done, my friend! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1712 days ago
    Great blog. I needed it this morning as I'm sitting here thinking of every way to get out of taking a walk because I need the points for the challenge...I need to walk because it will be good for me and my dog!
    1712 days ago
  • LCDM83
    I loved this. I get caught up in the numbers that way too. What a great perspective you offer. I'm glad you found your spark again.
    1712 days ago
    You seem to have found your center once again. The challenges can be highly motivating, especially for those of us who are a little competitive.
    The team needs you, a whole and balanced you, more than we need your points! Keep your spark alive!
    1712 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/13/2013 4:56:01 AM
    I'm still lost in the numbers and in the challenge. Having a hard time in this round. Heck, I had a hard time in last round and thought a change in teams would help. I'm unhappier now. The numbers don't motivate me. I did better, and felt better, before I got into the BLC. My weight loss has stalled and I'm feeling disliked. I missed the bonding at the beginning of the challenge because I was hospitalized 14 days. I withdrew, but was able to come back. Now I'm thinking that wasn't such a wise decision. So that I can complete what I started, I'll finish this round. But I don't think I'll be back. Good luck to you and thanks!
    1712 days ago
    know what you mean this week challenge in the blc is definately all about numbers that it is actually putting me off wanting to do something instead of the oppersite.maybe my brain is not working this weekend lol.keep on keeping on you are doing great love. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1712 days ago
    Great blog as always!! Yes, balance is key. It's motivating to know how far/fast/long we ran and how many calories were burned and meet those fitness goals BUT not if it robs us of the joy that exercise brings! Everything in moderation...even SPARK! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1712 days ago
    So easy to get caught up in the "game" and forget why we started here in the first place. Nice reminder, thanks.
    1712 days ago
    I, too, like to soak in some of God's great creation and smell the roses. There will come times -- and your body will know it -- when further changes will be necessary. Hug, hug -- Evelyn
    1712 days ago
    When it's FUN, it's easier to do (for sure!)
    1712 days ago
    Numbers are just a tool. Not the goal. My recent blogs had a similar theme as I looked back on four years in maintenance.
    1712 days ago
    Love the blog, what an apt and thought-provoking title.
    1712 days ago
    Really good message.
    1712 days ago
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