What's wrong with me?...::I asked myself as I left the gym yesterday evening.
I was surprised at how little I enjoyed my run...::actually did a double take after the thought sunk in fully.
Even today's afternoon swim felt dull....:::I thought to myself as I tracked those swim minutes on SP's tracker. It seems that in the past few weeks I haven't really "enjoyed" my fitness routines like I used to. My fitness Spark was missing. I knew it and it bothered me.
Minutes::....more fitness minutes....& more. Spark points
meeting EVERY goal
...::excelling with whatever challenge was posted on my BLC Team. Numbers. Simply numbers....::& time steals by.
I did say STEAL because that was what had happened. My balance was off.
What's happened to my mindset...::: WHY am I doing this?
All of this tracking, accumulating numbers....:::& for what reason?
I think I've fallen into a numbers mindset for some silly reason to accumulate as many points as I can for my team.....:::so much so that I've lost sight of the JOY of Fitness....:::my old comfortable friend, Fitness.
Well, I don't mind saying that, that conclusion rang TRUE. I woke up from my numbers game, and spent the day in prayer. Prayer for wisdom, and direction.
So, tonight I decided to run like I used to & taking a deep breath sailed right into my 5K routine ...::forgetting the NUMBERS - the burned calories, the minutes/mile and pace settings etc. I made myself just focus on the scenery around me as I sped by, and left the numbers behind...Lol!
I thoroughly enjoyed my run tonight. Only at the end did I take note of the time and calories. It was a relief. I laughed out loud. That run was FUN.
This evening I was able to share with another mom my love for fitness, and she shared with me that she had been off track for too long. Would I go running with her? she asked. I said, you bet! Sharing a common interest is a blessing to me.
That's what it's all about - enjoying LIFE, People, Every day and the JOY each moment brings. I will never again lose sight of WHY I do what I do.
Thank you for reading. I hope the lesson that I learned can be helpful to someone else. Moderation is wise ....yes, and that includes Sparking.
I SPARK to know that I'm not alone, but I must Spark in moderation. I can't let numbers drive me. And I run for the pure pleasure of running! May it ALWAYS be this way!