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Get out and Hide out

Saturday, July 13, 2013

Recently, I was reading about Randy Travis, while being treated for heart failure, had a stroke. Then I read that he was in critical condition. Finally, I read he was in critical condition and was sedated. I thought to myself, twice in one day, lucky guy. Lucky guy because he is out of the rat race. I wouldn't want to cause any suffering for his famly and friends, but that was my gut reaction. Then I read tonight that the guy responsible for the sweat lodge deaths in Arizona was out of jail on parole after two years in prison. At first I was a little outraged. How can you serve only two years in prison for negligent homicide? Then, I read that I think his brother said, "He wants to get out and hide out." And I thought, that's what I want to do. Get out and hide out. Go bury myself somewhere all by myself with no one else to take care of. You see, I am a caregiver, and sometimes I get these fantasies of doing anything to get out of it. Normally, I'm just fine. My wife and I are very close. We discuss nearly everything. But just once in a while, I really want to bust out. I will, just for a moment, desperately seek my freedom. Glenn
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  • MEDDYPEDDY
    Oh, I know what you are talking about, but the insight was just the beginning for me in changing. If I am not taking care of people I feel a little bad about myself, and if I do take care I start to build an angry feeling because I am neglecting my own needs. And I eat to numb the frustration... so the road to recovery lies in working hard to get a good balance in this. Isolation can be wonderful as a "time-out" now and then - but it is not a solution to me.

    Good blog - thanks!
    1242 days ago
  • ELMA1913
    It is so hard at times being a caregiver - not that one doesn't want to, but it takes a lot of out of you also. You need some "me" time. Hope your week end is blessed.
    1244 days ago
  • MJLUVSANIMALS
    Write it down. I find my getaway moments is writing it somewhere, how I am feeling. Better yet I will compose a poem, or a thought. It has always helped me to emotionally escape. Put it in a journal or get one of those books with blank pages. We can't save the world, but we can contribute to it, in a good way.
    1244 days ago
  • NANCYPAT1
    emoticon Being a caregiver is a truly challenging task. People who do it - NEED to find a place, a way, or a mindset that allows them to "get away" for a while. I hope this tiny respite helps. Have a blessed weekend and give yourself a BIG star for being a HERO in my eyes.
    1244 days ago
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